Well, I first came here in the fall of 2016, had a couple good weeks and then basically relapsed for more than a year with only a month long break the whole time. For a while now it feels like my life and my brain have been rapidly deteriorating. I am less able to focus on my life and bettering myself than I have ever been,yo the point where I have even injured myself at work with stupid mistakes twice and seriously strained my relationship with my sibling(family business). I'm not blaming all of this just on PMO, I have a lot of other issues as well, but more and more of my time is spent on PMO as its one of the few things along with weed and junk food that help me to feel better (fleetingly). I'm back here because I feel like I need a win really badly.