Guys, first things first: No hate, please! I'm on here for some years now, had ups and downs, and I learned many things - but the Mmost important: Find your OWN path to wander on - it won't be easier that way, but it will be the only one that gets you over the finish line. That said, my name is El, I'm a 30yo happily married guy and young father from Europe. I struggled with SSA (same sex attraction) since puberty - and still do. I do also have some issues regarding my maleness (lack of beard growth..., always compared myself to other guys in the gym...), that's why I started lifting some years ago. In the past years, it came to me, that P really was my problem and I'm very happy that I made it out of that shithole for quite some time now (over 120 days), even though I know it might not be completely over yet. These days, I struggle a bit with P-Subs like Instagram which I try to cut out as good as possible. BUT I also realized, that stop fapping doesn't feel right for me 'cause I see it as a part of my sexuality - with myself. (I know, why lots of you guys are choosing this path willingly, but i'ts not right for me.) I'm a Christian, so I know forgiveness - and I know, that Nobody's perfect here - at least myself. So I'm not sure, whether that's the right place, but I'd like to exchange thoughts about how fapping CAN be a HEALTHY part of ourselfs - CLEARLY without P or Subs. I'll leave it this open and hope to hear from you - via PM or here in the forum.