Anybody else addicted to transgendered person porn?

Ok so let me get this off my chest. Idk when I got into transgendered person porn. Or how. I must if came across it while veiwing milf asshole pictures or something. But as soon as I saw my first transgendered person porn I was hooked instantly. I got so far into it that when my friends would talk about real women porn stars. I didn't know half of them. Just the normal ones like Lisa Ann, Alexis Texas, Rachel start and so on. But if you were to ask me about transgendered person porn stars I could give you an extremely long list of famous and amateurs. I know it's crazy. But it's real and that's how far I let it take me over. I'm as straight as they come. But what use to get me going was seeing a slim transgendered person white or Latina. Idk why but the slim ones would make me hard as a rock and i would imagine doing all types of dirty things to them. Not suck dick or lick balls. But eat their ass out and fuck them with no condom. That type stuff. I would fantasize about raping a transgendered person as well. It got to the point where I told myself I might as well get an apartment and just fuck all the transgendered people I want and live my life that way. But that's no way I want to live. I would look at bbw transgendered people all the way to traps. Idk what makes me go so crazy over them. I could be on Google images looking at bbw milf asshole and all it takes is for me to scroll and see a sexy ass transgendered person bending over with her dick and balls dropping. And it will send me over the edge and I'll jack off non stop for at least 2 hours. Looking for the right scene or image. I had one relapse. Trying harder to do better though.

 

Thanks for the feedback man. I'm glad I'm in a place where I know I'm not the only one. And I'm the same way. I almost got tricked by a transgendered person once. But it wasn't until I told her to show me her vagina because I started getting suspicious. And she started getting nervous and getting mad. so I left immediately. If I really wanted to mess with transgender then that would of been my chance right there. The thought of ever having sex with a transgendered person in real life disgustes me. And I know if I ever where to actually do it. After I cum I would come to realization of what I just done and wouldn't be able to live with myself. I just want to shake this porn watching habit all together so I don't have to feel this way about myself anymore. And go back to being me.

 

BigDawg, this has been published about. I'm a GM, and as my PMO progressed I found myself watching MFM vids where the dudes were "Bi" and the F was just there as an extra to "Spit-Roast". (I frankly DON'T care about a person's orientation. They need to be happy inside and not putting a shotgun or Beretta in their mouths b/c society puts them down.) Then, I found myself watching MILF vids where there were 2 "Bi" M w/ her. I started years ago watching very "vanilla" gay M-M vids. But as time progress I needed, as has been described above, and in research more "exciting" vids to PMO to. It all goes back to those f-ing dopamine receptors we've all be abusing with PMO. Regardless of genre. As we deplete the receptors, we need more dopamine to get our "high". Your high was found in "transgendered person" P. It's great that you've discovered this and can react in a healthy way to combat it by a 'reboot'. I went as far as dropping $100's to find real life dopamine release in NYC.

 

I got into trans porn to the point I don't even know those female pornstars you mentioned, I think Sasha Gray is the only female pornstar I can name (and I've watched like 2 of her videos). I was into this for 11 years (since 14), and it's been 99.99% of the porn I've watched for the last 5 years. I even remember the first video I watched, and it's interesting, you'll see why... It was while watching porn on one of those weird TV channels that we had back then which would play porn late in the night, and suddenly an awesome ass appeared being ripped apart, the girl's face looked like an ugly junkie to me, but what an ass, boy... Then the camera moved and it revealed the dick, and I was like: "What the fuck was that?", it turnt me off immediately, but I thought: "so will there be any more men with such feminine bodies and great asses?", I looked into it and I got hooked. I started watching it and avoiding the scenes where the trans' dick could be seen, and here comes the interesting bit: I found that video again 9 to 10 years later, and not only her face turnt me on a lot, but also the bits where her cock was hard were my favorite ones (and she got a big one). So you can see how this shit took me further and further into perversion. Oh, that also can tell you how many videos I watched, to the point I kept finding videos that I already knew from years ago, you can count them by the thousands.
Btw I was deeply in love with a girl back then (at 14), to the point I still dream about her some nights, so it's not like I was gay.
I had my theories about why I liked this, and to some extent I agree with the emasculating other men to reaffirm our manliness, but I don't know, man... I was 14 fucking years old, and I was the most respected guy in high school... Yet I didn't like my looks, so I don't know...
Anyways, I simply forgot about theories, and I focused on who I wanted to be, because we are nothing but the decisions we make. I realized this in the most lame of ways, I was doing pull ups in a public park, and a lil kid and his father passed by, going for a walk, then the kid tried to do a pull up in a very low bar, and by the way the kid and father looked at me I realized that I was "that guy who is exercising in the park", like I could be the guy who is eating Oreos on the sofa, but I was the guy who exercises in the park, and thus I decided to never again betray myself by making bad choices. I decided to quit porn altogether, and to stop masturbating until my dick comes alive again, because I've got plenty of flatlines with girls I made out, to the point I remain a virgin at 25 years old. I really don't care that much about it, because it's not like I didn't have the chances, it's just that my dick didn't work (I was also drunk most of the times), so all I can do now is to fix that.
I tried quitting porn before this realization, and I always failed and came back to it, I also went for straight porn and in the end I would always come back to trans like full energy in, letting out all of the frustration from refraining from watching it. I felt so good and so different while watching it, like it was not even me, and 5 seconds after cuming I would be so disappointed at myself and so disgusted at the thoughts I had while horny, but then 20 minutes later I was considering to go for it again. So that was a fucking unstable state of mind, I recon that's how a drugaddict feels...
Now, it's only day 14, but I haven't felt the urge to watch porn not even for a single day, and I am a 100% sure that I'm not going back to any kind of porn, I know the kind of man I want to be and I know that being so depends only in the decisions I make.
I guess now and then I'll finish one of those morning woods if I don't have a partner for a long time, but no more porn and no more indulging on masturbation.
You can be whoever you want. You can't be the president of your country, but you can be the guy who is working to be so (maybe never making it) or you can be the guy who is on the sofa eating Oreos (surely never making it). And even if you don't make it, you'll still make something out of it, and even if you don't, it's quite something being a working guy with a goal and determination vs being an indulging pig on the sofa. I know what I'd rather be...
You are but a choice, so choose wisely.

 

It probably messed with your brain. I noticed that when I fapped for the first time of the day I would look for feminine trans, and stuff like good asses, but if I wanted to pull a second one (out of stress or "addiction") I needed something more "extreme", like a POV of a CD sucking cock, transgendered people masturbating, compilations of dildo orgasms with free hand cuming... Otherwise my dick wouldn't work. And that's because I was not horny at all (most of the times I wasn't for the first fap either), but it triggered me mentally. There was a time when I would stop fapping for 5/7 days, and then I would get actually horny and I would masturbate to just one cam of one woman, and it would feel clean, and right and true. But that only took me back to masturbating every day and watching trans porn again, because when I'm not phisically horny, that's the only thing that I've grown to respond to mentally. Too many years of mental conditioning, too many years of focusing my sexual energy into trans, I got to a point where I couldn't say the shit I say to transgendered people (on cam) to a woman, because I desexualized women, and focused all of my sexual thoughts and energy into trans. Women were no longer someome to have sex with, or to say naughty things to.
I would go to a party, and while being drunk women would turn me on so much, but if I got to something with them my dick would not work, and if I went home all horny not having touched a girl I would take all of that sexual frustration out masturbating to transgendered person porn, something that I wouldn't understand at all.
I finally quitted porn. 100% sure about it, not even having urges. And I wouldn't mind finding out that I'm gay, I don't care where this journey leads, I guess it'll lead to my truth, but I'm not going back to porn. Btw, so far, I'm dreaming about women, laying eyes on women, and not interested at all in men. Before this I got to a point where it made me unconfortable looking into my friends' eyes, because, man, I used to masturbate to dudes like them getting fuck (actually not like them, feminine boys, but boys after all), and I was worried that it might be out of fear of thinking about having them crossdressed or something, but now I no longer have that problem, and I just realized that it was out of shame, I didn't feel as men as them, spending my days masturbating to dudes fucking feminine guys (most of them clearly mentally sick, btw, having a totally unhealthy relationship with their sexuality). I've seen trans that would only get hard and cum if you told them how much of a failure of a man they were...
Dude, I just realized I have so much to say about this, I might start a blog or something haha

 

I've been there too. But then got desensitized to that as well and my brain figured it would be far more arousing to pretend to be the girl in straight porn. I don't know what stage comes after that but I honestly don't want to. It's only when you get to that point and your life is absolutely miserable that you realize that porn is in fact a drug.

 

I'm guessing if you were pretending to be the girl in straight porn, that was only because pretending to be the trans girl was scary, since it is something very possible, you could be the trans, while doing it with a woman is just a fantasy, since you don't have a vagina. But next stage was sure to be masturbating your anus while watching, there's plenty of stories of men who ended up being trans that way.
I honestly don't care about men being fucked if they want so, but I think that it should come as a natural urge to you, and not induced by porn or anything else. So just quit it and find yourself.
Don't assume anything though, because porn really messes with your sexual fetishes, so maybe you're not even bi, and you are just straight, nofap will tell you.

 

I'm assuming my straightness was confirmed the minute I put a real life dick in my mouth and made the face of a 5-year-old when they have to eat their veggies or something. I've dated several men because of this fetish and seeing them naked didn't arouse me at all, the only thing that got me hard was imagining being a girl I'd see in those videos. The penis was small and I still fantasize about the larger ones I'd see in porn sometimes and wonder what those would be like, but never have I had a crush on another man. In any case it seems to suggest fetish, novelty craving and porn induced desensitization/bicuriosity more than it does orientation. I also have no desire of becoming a girl whatsoever. It's just plain perverted these fetishes and watching porn enough times in a row seems to be a surefire way of getting them.