An unsatisfying middle ground.

I'd say I am lonely yes. Mainly due to lack of intimacies and interactions with the opposite sex.
I'd be totally happy in single life if I was actually still having intimate relations occassionally. There has been quite a few times now I have stopped short of taking a girl home with me from a night out or never followed through in going to see a girl because of shame. I've fapped so much and for so long I don't get strong erections I also have a fear I won't be able to finish.
On the flip side i'd also be very happy to find a relationship. I was in one briefly last year. We never ended up having sex. The one night it should have happened I was conveniently to tired. Its hard for me to find a girl to date due to lack of confidence which stems from this problem.
I am just stuck in the middle in a viscious cycle.
I am in the process of rebooting and I am hopeful I will one way or the other rid myself of this loneliness.