Am I saved?Will I? Idk, i'm lost.

Hello, I hope you good, so that's my story, it will be long but plz read it(excuse my English too,i'm a french speaker). I was born in a good christian family,raised Well w/o problems. Since I was a kid, i was curious about girls and sex. And when i was 14, I watched by a friend my first porn, well it was fine, when I had my first phone, I became to watch it nearly everyday cz I was shy and uncomfortable with myself. I was even caught up by my family twice but i was keeping watching that, but, it was not an addiction. When I was 16, I decided to stop because I grew up, and had no justification (I became to talk to girls, hang out with friends, go to parties), i was confident and postive about myself and also I was preparing to be baptized and I even have courses about christian life. Well, it was not easy, but after I talked with one of my leaderin a Christian prayer camp, I was free. I got baptized and even prayed in tongued. Well, it was cool, but the problem was I left porn, not girls and my past life,and even when I said i was free, I was keeping looking it like once a month. So I had a lotta gfs; practice sexual practice like oral sex, and even slept with a prostitute. I was telling myself that I was living my youth and YOLO!!! but i was wrong. I felt empty bcz I was alone, all my gfs broke up with me. And porn was a temporary refuge and then, I made the biggest mistake of my life . I was watching porn in the bathroom; and then, I jerked for the first time. I felt so good then I restart it again and again and it became an habit, I knew I was dealing with a huge problem, I went to the prayer camp again ... It was fun, i was decided to change and totally surrender to christ, but I relapsed two weeks ago. And after that man I did everythng ,pray,fast; confess (even to my family and my closest friends), cry, went to délivrance prayer,to prayer camps, read books in sexual purity; formation in sexual purity, all and all and all and all ... but it only getting worst; I fapped nearly errday, i can't even do 3 days without it.(well; to precise, since i am here to Usa nearly 2 years cause i am from Africa and I came here to study, but I have a lotta friends here, a community, and a church) And now IDK what to do. Man.I f*cked up, I am tired to fight, i feel like it will only get worst. I went from soft to extreme hardcore porn.( i'm interested in oral sex and I 85% watch african and ebony porn, because i'm an african who lives in the U.S) and bro i'm fired. I'm afraid to live. The true is i'm smart; calm (but funny lol), read the bible every day, sanctify all the aspects of my life except porn. I have a lotta friends who love me and who even I lead to christ (sometimes I even preach) and many Friends who are girls and who loves me; even if i decided to still single. I am not pervert in real life, only with my smartphone. So guys; with the amount of porn I watched, Is God still love me? If so, why After all i tried; i'm still a slave? I've been a lotta troubles in my life, i won most of it, but porn still beat me. Soon, I'll be 20 yrs old; and i don't want to live like this
Help me; dm me if you want to.


Thanks for reading; be blessed.

 

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Thanks for all of your supports. I think; sometimes; i feel I reached the level of the unforgivable; of the excess, but still; I'll go to ask him to forgive me again ...