I relapsed last night and used pmo as an escape as much as I don't like using the word "escape" it is the truth. I was lying in my bed just like any other day and had some urges to watch porn although at first I said "No!" But when I kept going through my phone and eventually came to a stage where I had nothing else left to do on it, my mind immediately jumped to porn and I watched it for like 5 minutes then again stopped, realised what I was doing but the damage was already done and a bit later after talking to my friend I again went to porn. The reason I said escape it's because I was going through a lot and just wanted to forget everything in the moment, I wanted to handle the pressure but also I didn't, so out of the two I fell and escaped for like 2 minutes. I didn't even wash myself just layed down and slept. I should have stopped myself, I could have, I must have. Though it is an improvement over my last streaks and I am not too sad but still.. one feels bad after going through so much. I will keep on improving and this time will surpass these 21 days and make it to 30.