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Addicted to hentai, excessive fapping

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Frühlingstimme, Nov 3, 2016.

  1. Frühlingstimme

    Frühlingstimme Fapstronaut

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    The career I want requires a lot of study. I have a lot of, let's say, free time, which is, actually, time I should be studying. I do not have fixed time to study, my progress is measured by results -- I study at home.

    Spending so much time alone, and my lack of discipline led me to excessive contact with otaku culture, specially hentai pics and games. I've always loved games, but this started to harm my professional life, no, my life in general.

    I'm thirty, have no social life, been lonely as long as I can remember. I had a girlfriend in my teens, but we split very soon, and I am somewhat used to be alone. Even like it sometimes, but I didn't want to trade relationships and maybe a wife (all of my college friends are now married or engaged, some have kids) to fap alone in my room, I live with my parents, what makes the shame even worse.

    I didn't really wanted to do this introduction as it's somewhat shameful. I registered here on forum because the reddit is becoming somewhat shallow. I tried NoFap four times now, this is the fourth try and I am on twelfth day. Maximum days without fap or hentai was thirty days, on my first try.

    Later tries, after the first, always end by day ten or fourteen, yesterday I had my first victory. Struggled all night, had less sleep, but avoided the urges. I am also somewhat scared of wet dreams. My third relapse occurred after a wet dream, and I felt like a wagon hit all my body that day, the urges were intense and my head was confuse because the dream was really, really crazy. I'll not tell it here, but I'm scared until now. I didn't know people could dream such things. Guess it's how hard my addiction was. And maybe what made it worse is that I never liked "normal porn" (as normal as porn can be), I liked girls with cat ears, fantasy stuff, so it's just my mind going wild.

    Sorry for the long introduction, but if it were just to drop by and say hello like all was fine I'd not join. I wish to learn with other nofappers and let's do this 90 days as smoothly as possible.
     
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  2. Must..Resist..Fappening

    Must..Resist..Fappening Fapstronaut

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    Hey Frulingstimme,welcome to Nofap, I joined up last week. I don't think you should count a wet dream as a relapse, you don't really control what happens in your sleep,although it may feel like one because of the "chaser effect" that you will hear about on these forums. It means after an orgasm, you will feel greater urges than before you had one for the next couple of days.
     
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  3. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

    Welcome to NoFap. Please do not feel ashamed. Everyone is here to encourage you. Your addiction is different from some and similar to others. We applaud you for your courage to make the first step of letting someone know you want help. We will be here to help you as we can.
     

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