Addict to self-exposure online

I need to expose myself, i need to show me on cam site you know.
This is something that i do since maybe 1 year.
That turn me on so much being watch by stranger and they say what they wanna do to me.

I have also send a lot of nude to some random guys on snapchat for example.
But each time i do that, i regret it when i Orgasm.

Yes because while i masturbate i didn't control myself but when i finally Orgasm i finally realise what i do and that make me feel really really ashamed.

I feeling deppressed and have lose all my self-esteem wich wasn't already very high.

I wanna cry because i'm feeling like a stupid cum-dump who expose himself just to excite other man...

Then i have stop this really bad habits since now more than 50 days but i feel like i wanna do it again. Today i'm feeling lonely and i wanna do it again...

Please help me to not relapse
Anyone got the same problem ??

 

Yes the desire pass but come back every time i got a bonner even if i stop watching P since more than 50 days this urges stay in my mind... I don't know how to do... Why that don't want to disapear...