a wonderful new journey

Discussion in 'Women in Reboot' started by cloudhugs5, Nov 17, 2018.

  1. Retro Girl

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    Almost a week, congrats on your progress!

    :)
     
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  2. cloudhugs5

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    Thank you, congrats to you as well! :D
     
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  3. cloudhugs5

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    Day 6:
    Pray. ✅
    Read the Bible. ✅
    Go to school. ✅
    No PMO. ✅
    Go to bed at 10:30 pm. ✅
    Practice keyboard.
    Read at least 20 pages of a book.
    Post an entry on this thread. ✅

    Hi everyone, today was ok. :) I didn't really get any urges. Most of my day was spent at school, when I got home I completed two assignments, then read the Bible.

    I hope you all are well. :p I believe in you all!
     
  4. Bee_11

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    You're doing great, girl. I hope you will have many better days in tje coming future. Where there is will, there is the way.
     
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  5. cloudhugs5

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    Thank you do much, I hope you do too. :)
     
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  6. cloudhugs5

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    Day 7:
    Pray. ✅
    Read the Bible. ✅
    Go to school. ✅
    No PMO. ✅
    Go to bed at 10:30 pm. ✅
    Practice keyboard.
    Read at least 20 pages of a book.
    Post an entry on this thread. ✅

    Yay, a week! :p

    Today was decent. I went to school, studied for the history test I have tomorrow, prayed, read the Bible, and watched Youtube videos, which was nice. I didn't have any urges today.

    I hope you all are well. :)


     
  7. Beautiful_Life

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    You are doing it so so well :) Continue like that, discipline is really important.
     
  8. cloudhugs5

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    Day 0 (Relapse):

    I pmo'ed. :( I have been in my bed all day, so maybe that is why. This morning I searched r/porn in my browser but I thought about what I was doing before I continued then pressed the panic button a bit of times on here, but the thought to do it was still in my mind...I tried reading to distract me but the thought of doing it was still there so I caved...it didn't even feel that good...

    And after, I checked my old internet friend that I haven't talked to in a bit over two weeks kik account because I thought "I pmo'ed, might as well do this too." so I feel horrible

    My life is a mess...but I won't give up fighting this
     
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  9. GhostWriter

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    Yet you’re here. Your life isn’t a mess. You’re life is recovering. Dust yourself off and get back in the game. It ain’t over til it’s over.
     
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  10. Retro Girl

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    Hope all is well, stay strong :)
     
  11. cloudhugs5

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    Day 0:

    Hi everyone! I am back.
    So...earlier today I PMO'ed, after abstaining from it a few days.
    One of the reasons why I wasn't active on this website is because I kept telling myself that MO'ing/PMO'ing isn't a big deal and not bad, because I didn't want to stop receiving the short-term pleasure I get from doing it. This isn't true or okay. It makes me feel bad about myself. It is a bad thing. It has harmful effects on me and kills me spiritually.
    I also chatted with my online friend last month again, and that also influenced my mindset above, because he was someone who I had sexual conversations with...but now we aren't talking and will not talk again for various reasons.
    I feel guilty for lying to myself. That is something I've done for a while; telling myself that my current lifestyle is okay to not have to get rid of what makes me feel good in the short term, although long term things will make me feel even better, and they should be my top priority, not the short term things.

    I also have grown distant from God, because of my mentality that I mentioned, which is so horrible for me. I want to become close to Him and trust Him.

    Basically, I need to step up my game and stop thinking "Oh well" to the things I do that harm me. I need/want to live a life centered around God. I have been trying to get rid of this addiction for over a year, and I have made little progress. I am so tired of it, along with other things I am doing in my life. So...I will post on here as regularly as I can until I beat this.

    The small milestone I have for beating PMO at the moment is three days. I want to go longer than that of course, but breaking my long term goal into smaller milestones helps. :)

    Anyway, I hope you all have been okay, and never give up.
     
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  12. cloudhugs5

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    Day 2:
    Hi everyone. :) One day from reaching my goal! :D
    I have barely had any urges, but that is how it always is the first few days. I need to be careful.
    The only problem I have been having today and yesterday is negative thoughts, but I have been praying and God will help me through them.
    Anyway, today I went to school and two stores. When I got home, I went outside for a bit, then showered, then studied for the History test I have tomorrow, watched youtube videos, read the Bible, and most recently, prayed, so not too bad of a day.

    I hope you all have had a nice day. If not, it gets better. <3
     
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  13. Beautiful_Life

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    Dear cloudhugs, nice to see you are back again here. You can do it with God’s help..Pray and go close to Him, enjoy every minute of your life and appreciate yourself as you are.
    I never thought I would achieve it and maybe that thinking was also the one that was limiting my faith in God. He can do everything, in me He did a miracle..I wish you the best! God bless you
     
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  14. cloudhugs5

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    Thank you so much! :D Congrats on your streak. God bless you also!
     
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  15. cloudhugs5

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    Day 3:
    Hello all. Reached my milestone so yay! :) My next milestone is a week, so just four more days.
    Today was half good and half bad. I was in a horrible mental state until about this afternoon; I had horrible thoughts like yesterday. Now I feel much better.
    School was okay, kind of uneventful though. The end of the term is Friday so I hope I can raise my grade in two of my classes and pass my bio final. :D
    Anyway, after school, I went outside for a bit. It is getting warmer! I also prayed, read the Bible, watched youtube videos, and followed an Inkscape tutorial. I am interested in graphic design and would love to get better at it.

    I honestly can't wait for the future. I still have two months of school, but next school year should be more interesting in terms of the classes I take, I am looking forward to AP Psychology. I also will do better than I did this year. I also am looking forward to college --- studying things in more depth and experiencing the college life seems so fun to me.

    That is all! God bless all and I hope you all are doing well. ^_^
     
  16. cloudhugs5

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    Day 7:

    I had some strong urges last night, but God pulled me through them :) I am glad. I am looking forward to a relaxing and pmo free three day weekend!

    God bless you all. :D
     
  17. For the Record

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    Wow, I'm very proud of you cloudhugs!

    Keep it going, i'm on my longest streak since i've started masturbating and it's really tough sometimes.

    Showering cold also helps, and i understand you watch P regulary, abstaining from that is much more important than ocassionaly M or MO.
     
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  18. cloudhugs5

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    Thank you! Congratulations on your streak :)
     
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  19. cloudhugs5

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    Day 9:

    Have had some urges. I feel bored and kind of sad a lot and PMO was a quick fix for that, but I need to find other coping methods now. My next goal is 14 days.

    Never give up and God bless you all :)
     
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  20. cloudhugs5

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    Day 10:

    Hi everyone! I haven't had any urges so far today. I went to school and the library after, I got books mostly about psychology, and three others about philosophy and art. I have a lot to read haha! I will definitely be reading a lot more, as well as praying/reading the Bible and doing my best in school. Those are my main focuses at the moment, along with abstaining from PMO. :) I also want to consume less sugar, and eat better things instead; I put the sweets I had out of sight today.

    I hope you all are doing well! ^^
     
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