A New Start Again- July 28,2018

Hi,

I am a 28 years old Indian resident who got introduced to PM by my friends when I was 15 or 16. At that time,I found that M is an amazing feel and P just multiplies this feeling to such a great extent. I was hooked to it, and it became an addiction.

Now, I am trying to get out of PMO addiction. I have tried quitting a couple of times in the past. About 5 months ago, I created a thread about the feelings and experiences during my 5 days of "no fapping" session. Then I relapsed and felt like shit.

Tried again, felt awesome; relapsed again, and felt like shit again.

It's been about ten days since I have watched P. However, I relapsed last night after watching some softcore stuff.

I would like to give it a new try. It's difficult, but I know that benefits are really amazing.

Wish me luck friends.

P.S- I will also try to keep you updated about my progress.

As of now, I feel so low, no motivation, no urge to do anything. Just want to stay in bed forever. 

 

Well, it was the tv advertisement for a condom. Then I started searching for that actress, and before I realize, it was too late. I will try to limit watching tv.

 

Yesterday went very well. I had no urges, but I was really tired and feeling low because of the M I did day before yesterday.

Just started my day today. Feeling good. Hope to accomplish a lot today.

 

Day-2 Update

It was an amazing day for me. I felt very relaxed. I still lack the confidence that I desire, but there was a feel-good feeling around me. I was less tensed and enjoyed my Sunday with my family. I usually spend my day watching tv, youtube etc., but yesterday I was more interested in doing some physical stuff like jogging, walking, jumping up and down the stairs. I watched less tv.

I think very soon I will have to make up some goals to channel this internal energy I am experiencing. I am not saying that I feel like Superman, but I definitely feel alive.

 

Day-3 Update

Day started very well. I was so positive and full of energy. I accomplished a lot of work today. In general, I am a lazy guy who spends most of his time thinking useless things, watching tv, rolling on the bed etc.

I was different today. I also did some excercises. There was no urges but energy level was bit high.

However, I failed at night, and fapped. I regret about the same. Only good thing is there was no P and there was no fantasies involved. Actually, I don't even want to do it. I just felt some pressure, and felt as if fapping was the only way to get out of it.