A new point of view

Hey guys! How are you doing?
I've been going through a rough time lately: stress, anxiety, insecurities, realizations on myself and on life...

Especially in the last two weeks, my willpower and motivation have been a bit low and I peeked more and more often (6 times I guess in total);
from a bunch of bikini models to porn, it never lasted more than three minutes, but was enough to make my penis become so sensitive and my balls feel like they were exploding.
But still, I fought the urges. Still, I resisted, because I want to make it to 90 days no matter what.

ATTENTION: TRIGGER MATERIAL.

A very interesting consideration is the following:
despite not being able to avoid my recurring sexual fantasies, I gladly realized that the focus switched from my own pleasure, and from the mere act of penetration, to a deeper and sweet act of cuddling, kissing the neck, whispering words of love, gently and slowly touching the girl AROUND her intimate parts and imagining her REACTIONS and FEELINGS.
In a nutshell: the only thing I care about in my fantasies now is HER pleasure, HER body in a more pure and sincere way.
And it feels good in a way that DOES NOT MAKE ME FEEL DIRTY OR GUILTY OR A LOSER.

I think I got it, guys. Love and respect, what it really means.

Thank you for reading, have a nice day!