This is day 25 of my MO detox. I'm so happy that I haven't relapsed. My previous streak was 14 days not that long ago. Urges come and go but today they just sneaked up on me out of nowhere. I was going into panic mode but I quickly regained control cos stress is a big trigger for me. I just said to myself: it's ok this is normal just don't make a big deal out of it. My body had gotten used to getting release through MO and that's why the urge just came out of nowhere. I noticed that since I didn't panic the M thoughts quickly went away. I'm not a weak person for having urges. I know I can do without MO I don't need a meaningless O by myself. It only makes me feel empty and desperately craving for a relationship. Which is so dangerous cos I noticed that when I was into doing the deed I felt attracted to almost anyone. I began falling for guys I would have never considered back when I was sober. Wow, I feel like I had something great before that I just didn't know how to value. "Good judgment"