*Spoiler alert* My name is Drew and I am addicted to adult content. I have been addicted since I was an early teen and I am struggling to stop. Over the years I have found different ways to satisfy my carnal desires. However, now that I am dating and trying to commit to someone, I have noticed that this material is putting a damper between us. I haven't had any kind of sexual exposure contact in over three years, but I feel like I am doing a lot worse. Recently I stepped inside an adult store that had an arcade in the back, this is where I feel I fell harder into my addiction. This adult store is in a different state, and the road to this place is really dangerous. However, even though the trip is time and energy consuming, I still find any reason to lie and head over the mountain and self-indulge. I feel selfish, dirty, and unworthy of trying to get married next year.