Hey all. My AP challenged me to post a success story now that I have reached 60 days. Like everyone here, I shutter to think about the extent that PMO has destroyed my confidence, energy level, and self esteem. I cringe to think about the irreparable damage that I have done over a 20 year period. I knew that I needed to resist it. I would go one week and then reset. The day after a relapse is the worst depression imaginable: I do my best to keep my mouth shut at work and in life, or risk exposing my fragile state. A couple days go by, and then I start to feel better, more energized. But, I would bring myself back into the abyss within one week. Now, thanks to NoFap, it has been nine weeks! When I first came to NoFap earlier this year, I was ready. I was interested in the articles and forum conversations. It was good to relate to others and even talk about it myself. It's not like I could do that in my real life. I was able to go five months without PMO. But, I reset after drifting away from these forums. At that point, I was really scared because I didn't have the same resolve and humility as before, so I wouldn't be able to do it again. I decided to get an AP because I didn't have the strength to do it on my own. And, it has been working! I have gone two and a half months without PMO. My strength to resist temptations ebbs and flows. These temptations include sexy pics/movies, and also over-fantasizing in my own head. With my APs, we scheduled our check-in days. Knowing that I had to report to someone on a certain day helped me pull out of a dive more than once, when I was starting to over-indulge in those temptations. Although my personal life has problems (e.g. sexual identity questions, obsessed with what "might have been" if I didn't become a stoner in high school, etc), I don't need to tell any of you how much happier I am being PMO-free. I would be glad to chat with anyone, so send me a message. Good luck to everyone.