A little early but, what the hell, felt like writting it!

Hello dear fellow men devoting to bettering themselves,

Today I hit day 20. Certainly not that long for a lot of you guys, but, myself, I've never been even remotely close to this long being abstinent since I first started it all. Feels good.

Now let me say this: I don't want to preach miracle or be pessimistic like some are. I think the truth is a little more balanced.
These last few weeks, I almost quit my job, I was like fire. I've always been but with this, I had a lot to deal with emotionally, if that makes sense. I actually didn't show up one day without calling. Didn't answer their calls, downright depressed, acting a little irrationally. Some coworkers showed up at my place after their shifts and we talked and I felt better and realized what I did. Thankfully I love my job and my boss is awesome and she wanted me to come in to talk about the issues I raised (under appreciation for some of the work I did, some things like that).

I came in the next day, went straight to a meeting with her and the manager, and they told me that it was a funny timing that all this happened because they already had decided to give me a promotion, but they didn't want to announce it yet. They told me they heard what I said and looked at our efficiency and everything and, bottom line, I got promoted! Haha.

Before that though, I gradually, very quickly, started feeling better about myself, self-image, how I sounded, social anxiety, my interaction with girls. I don't want to sound like a tool but I'm a good looking guy and I didn't understand that it's not enough, you have to have a certain confidence and swagger, if that makes sense.

My journey started as my girlfriend of 5 years dumped me over the phone. God that sounds terrible being said like that haha. That was ehh around.. November? I think?
Anyhow, not too long ago. I felt like shit, stayed at my mom's for a few days... I'm almost 25 you see. No bueno.

I quit smoking, jerking off, porn, mid-afternoon rêveries in general. Picked back up boxing and working out. Recently I've started cooking and bringing lunch at work, no more takeout and stuff. All at once. I like to think of this as what Travis Bickle does in Taxi Driver, no more corruption. Or Fight Club, to pull out the clichés.
I feel like we have a duty to live our live to the fullest and not fuck around.

Every girl at the office changed their attitudes towards me, this girl, let's call her A., always plays with my hair and flirts. They all openly flirt with me. This is not superpower though, it's evolution. I care. I'm working on it. I practice (lol) in front of the mirror, I just bought facial cream for the first fucking time in my life.
You will earn whatever you work for.

I would gladly follow up on it but I don't want to write something too lengthy hehe, I will keep on not fapping, it's not even a question in my mind, I don't really think about it as much.




Quick FAQ / points for those just seeking quick info:
1- No superpowers: just more efforts (conscious & unc.) that yield results physically and mentally.
2- I've actually been flat-lining a little bit, but never for too long. I get urges, but I work through 'em.
3- Girls (everybody...)sense(s) it. Build on the fact that you are bettering yourself, whether it's with this or anything else actually. The simple fact that you make an effort is worth something. Never underestimate what you can do freed from the grapples of this toxic addiction.
4- Be better to people around you, it feels amazing. People sense it. Your inner self senses it, without wanting to sound to Freudian. Forgive.

Bless you all and thank you for this movement, I evolved more in the past month than I've done in years. Still a work in progress though, love you all!

Martin ~

 

Absolutely! I used to work out a lot before I got comfy in my old-relation-ship-slacks. Now more then ever it takes more will, but I feel like it makes the whole process of healing go quicker, or be more profound at least, if you maintain bigger sexual urges. Like you have more sexual energy to "fuel" off from.
Plus boxing make girls wet.

My goals are to quit porn completely for the rest of my life even if I watch it once I never want to be hooked on that ever again, that's just shameful (at least for myself I'm not judging others, solely myself). That being said, once I will feel that I'm "cured", once with myself and my sexuality, then, sure, I won't stop myself to masturbate if that is how I feel. But not out of "I have to, my balls are gonna explode".

Oh and cold showers are awesome too. Makes you more badass and helps with the skin color (I'm in Montreal folks, my windows are currently covered by snow (semi-basement)).
Also I noticed new hair follicules on my face. I would say it's most probably because of the testosterone increase