90 days i want you

im writing this post as i start this challenge in order to document why i want to succeeed badly. porn has killed years of my life i have used it as an escape tool for to long. i dont enjoy things due to its dominant role in my life. i was many hours a week pursuing it. i go and search video after video always hoping to find that magic but its never there and the end game is always feeling shitty it fuck with my interaction with others. i take risks that can get me in trouble. i have no care for others using other peoples devices to watch. i seek it at work. i seek it after work. its a secret that kills me om the inside. at my worst i have watched 12 hours in a row to escape my life. i couldnt talk straight due to my intense depression at that time. life has gotten better but it has been dipping due to my porn consumption. i have an important role and raise that i have gotten at work and their is no way that i will succesfully handle it unless i start pmoing. im 27 it is time for me to get my life together. i have tried to quit so many times before and it hasnt worked. i am going to try this time to be part of this community and change my habits and hope that things go differently pls feel free to give me tips for how to get it right this time. i want to succeed at this for many reasons some include i want to keep my word and build discipline. i wamt to find dopamine with healthy activities. i want control over my life. i want to attract real girls, and build a healthy relationship with someone. i want to better my social skills. i want to be more focused and have more energy. i want to be in control over how i spend my time. i want to face my fears and anxieties head on. i want to win in life. i want to be proud of myself. i dont wnat waste precious hours devoting it to some fantasy online thats not real. i want to try something new and i need all of your help and support. i will add more later i look forward to all feedback. sorry if i was redundant or all over the place i fucked up tonight after i started edging 2 days ago and i want to get on the NoFap train asap.

 

i want a family i want to be a great husband and dad. i want to accomplish shit and start my own company. i want to build a stronger group of friends. i want to be strong and resilient. and in order to do so i need to let go of my friend porn and masturbation who is so good at making everything about him while putting up a while around everything else. Porn enough is enough your worthless and your artificial and superficial allure are nothing to all of the real things out there. Goodbye porn i hope to never see you again.