This is my first journal through the relentless failings of the 90 day process. My goal is to post daily so to help inspire and lead others through our challenge as well as having a type of accountability through community. I just turned 26 and have been watching porn since 18/19. Day 1 After a 6 day record, I relapsed. I'm feeling more depressed and tired than usual relapses. I wrote this today on my white board (the first thing I see when I wake up in the morning) "What do I really want?" I want a wife, a woman not a girl, a healthier relationship with God, a healthier relationship with myself. I'm going to start doing 2 new things: 1) I'm going to keep my phone in another room at night and use my alarm clock instead of my phone as an alarm. The temptation to use my phone for PMO in the morning one is too great. 2) I'm going to delete all contacts, images, saved links ect from my electronics so to eliminate easy access to P I enjoy. Have a great day everyone!