90 Day Challenge Until My Girlfriend Comes to Visit

Hi everyone, I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this but I just need to get it off my chest as there isn't anyone I can talk to this about.

Over the past year I've significantly improved myself; I quit video games, porn and meeting random Tinder girls purely for sex in that order. I found a wonderful girlfriend while studying abroad and had the best 8 months of my life spending everyday with her.

However, since coming back to America and being apart from her I have PMO'd almost everyday for the past month. I'm quite disappointed in myself. I became strong enough to be the best person I can be when I am with her, and now I realize I need to still be that person when she is far from me.

She's coming to visit in exactly 90 days and I don't want to PMO until then. Partly so that I am charged up to utterly obliterate her when she comes but also because PMO takes up way too much time out of my day when I have great ambitions I must work towards. I also feel the built up horniness frustration benefits my creative capacity as I am more inclined to seek euphoric rushes through the music I create.

I am going to create beautiful music and stop consuming revolting virtual garbage. For 90 days starting from 11am yesterday. I'll be posting updates to track my progress.

Here we freaking go.
(idk if you can swear on here, thank you hearing me out internet)

 

Day 2 Check In:

I agree I should do this for my myself and intrinsically my relationship will benefit.

Feel pretty good today, got my old gang of close friends back together yesterday and have a busy week planned to keep my mind out of the gutter. I think keeping a small journal like this will help to record my progress. Greater temptations are yet to come.

 

Day 3 Check In:

Went to a Career Fair today, 2 more fairs the next 2 days to keep me busy. There were some physically attractive women there of course (as there always are whenever one goes outside) which were a bit triggering but I recognized that & calmed myself down.

I’m excited to workout tomorrow as I haven’t been able to in 4 days now. There will be more women at the gym I’m sure, but I’m prepared for that.

 

Day 4 Check In:

Visited my sister and went to another career fair today, the big fair will be tomorrow. Talking to companies is stressful but I feel I’ve gotten ample practice, it’s important not to make any excuses for myself related to stress relief; I have to find healthy ways to deal with it.

Also will FaceTime my girlfriend tomorrow when I wake up, that can be triggering but I’m ready for it.

 

Day 5 Check In:

Huge career fair today, got an interview opportunity with an amazing company I didn’t think would even notice me but they’re paying for my flight to interview next week! Super excited about that, as expected I got a little triggered talking to my girlfriend but I was able to recognize it and avoid the temptation.

Going to spend tonight and tomorrow applying to more companies after speaking with about 40 at the fair, it’s stressful but I can do it and I’ll remember to relax and calm myself without PMO, I feel tired but hopeful.

 

Day 6 Check In:

Thanks DraKon, hang in there yourself dude!

I had a wet dream last night and felt extra tempted but I got through it, the plumber came to fix the hot water heater so having someone else around put me in a good position to avoid temptation.

I applied for about 5 companies today and will do more tomorrow, it’s tedious to fill out the same information again and again but I’ve been staying calm and relaxing myself with YouTube videos instead of PMO to relieve stress. In the future I want to cut out YouTube & Reddit as well, getting rid of PMO first is a good start to quitting those more pervasive dopamine driven addiction outlets.

Looking forward to seeing my sister on the weekend, after tomorrow I’ll have gone an entire week, I can do this!

 

Day 7 Check In:

Thanks ProMusicLover2009! We’re all in this together!

ONE WEEK DONE! Seeing a play with my family tonight, Skyped my girlfriend in the afternoon & walked around the city this morning.

I had a dream of me watching P last night, I’ve had these types of dreams before I’m hoping they will go away after some time. I’m super excited to see my friends tomorrow and for my big interview next week, even if it goes poorly I’m going to stay positive applying to more jobs & keep giving it my all! Next mini milestone will be the 10 day mark, hope everyone here is staying strong as well!

 

Day 8 Check In:

8 feels like a lucky number to me now, met up with my friends today and tried to convince them to join NoFap to no avail. I realize balancing my long distance relationship with NoFap doesn't make sense to some people but I'm going strong so far!

Currently watching football with the guys while applying to more jobs, I'm getting more nervous as my big interview approaches. Will I really enjoy the job even if I get it? I have to focus on doing my best and putting everything I have into the interview regardless, I need to keep my mind clear and sharp to attain my goals. Onwards to 10 days!

 

Day 8 Check In:

8 feels like a lucky number to me now, met up with my friends today and tried to convince them to join NoFap to no avail. I realize balancing my long distance relationship with NoFap doesn't make sense to some people but I'm going strong so far!

Currently watching football with the guys while applying to more jobs, I'm getting more nervous as my big interview approaches. Will I really enjoy the job even if I get it? I have to focus on doing my best and putting everything I have into the interview regardless, I need to keep my mind clear and sharp to attain my goals. Onwards to 10 days!

 

Day 9 Check In:

Super tough today being alone in a hotel room just being nervous for my interview tomorrow, I gotta sleep now but if all goes well I’ll secure a job offer and a 10 day streak tomorrow, going to charge up for that & hit the hay now!

 

Day 10 Check In:

And here I am at day 10, waiting in the airport for my chicken rice bowl. My interview went ok, I can never really tell with those things it seems so arbitrary.

Was seriously tempted in the hotel this morning as well, I realized I just didn’t have time anyway. I’ve been debating over whether PMO might have some benefit to mitigate more evil temptations which would seriously damage my LDR. I’ve got to relax and keep doing my best everyday, hopefully I get this offer with my dream company I just interviewed for but if not I still have another interview with a different company on Monday at least.

I keep thinking of things I could have done differently but it’s probably all in my head, now I have stress just waiting for a response...at least I’ll be able to go to the gym again starting tomorrow. Gotta stay strong as I approach the 2 week mark!

 

Day 11 Check In:

It's late and my eyes hurt from screens, I've been so busy with job applications and driving all around to job fairs and to see my friends and drive to an interview that I haven't had any time to PMO even if I really wanted to. Feel frustrated today, very anxious about the result of my interview that happened yesterday as that's my #1 company choice, I'm prepared to accept the results if I don't get it but I feel so much is riding on me landing a job with this particular company...I have to remain calm and stop frantically checking my email to see if they've sent a response yet.

I hope I have time to record some music tomorrow as I haven't in a while now but after going to the gym, filling out more applications, scheduling doctor and orthodontist appointments and making an introduction video of myself for a different company I don't think I'll have time for music...it feels annoying to make an introduction video of me too, that's a lot of effort for a job in career I don't actually want to do at all, I'd be doing it purely for money. And perhaps living in New York would be nice.

At this point I feel if I PMO'd I'd be even more stressed about that, beating myself up over my failure after feeling like I made so many mistakes in my interview as well. All I need is some rest, I was so happy to call my girlfriend today and calling her on Friday will help too, I just have to make it through tackling my massive tasks list tomorrow. I can do this!

 

Day 12 Check In:

Thanks mindright, I feel much better today I’m all ready to crush the 2 week mark!

I did my first video interview today, it actually went really well I think! It’s so nice to not have to wear pants and to be able to take off the suit immediately. I felt really comfortable answering the questions, plus it turns out this interview was for a great international company (previously I was confused what company it was for) so I’m glad I’m a strong enough candidate to be granted a video interview opportunity.

It feels nice to have options even if my #1 company doesn’t accept me. But this video interview company also has a strong international presence so maybe they’d be even better to work with? I’ll have to wait for an offer first before I think about it too much. There’s always a possibly I end up having to work a standin job for a while until I can find something professional.

With all this being said I feel incredibly grateful today for all the opportunities I’ve been granted, when I was younger I would scoff at the world and treat myself as a victim of unfortunate circumstances but looking at everything now that attitude appears childish and unsophisticated to me.

Hope everyone keeps fighting and looking on the bright side of things, NoFap is certainly a step in the right direction. We are all on the right track forward, it’s up to us to steer the ship and maintain a steady course!