[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 0.

 

Saturday: 80/90
Sunday (Today): 81/90

 

Day 1/90. A moment ago came to my mind the idea of watching porn. Then I remember I had entered the 90 days challenge. This will be a rough fight.

 

Day 3/90

 

Day 5. Day after day it getting more difficult. But like the great men here say.
"What do we say to PMO?"
"Not Today"

 

Start Date: Jan 25, 2019
Day 132/135 no PM (relapsed day 51, 70, 102)
Day 33/90 consecutive no PM
Day 135 no alcohol or caffeine
Day 103 weight training
- just checking in to say no urges for the past few days
- feeling wonderfully at peace with my life, wife and my myself
- stay strong, live proud brothers

 

Day 38 of 90

 

Back to 0

 

Day 9

 

very good bro, let´s go!!!

 

good luck!!!

 

10

 

Day 117
Helped my uncle today, got sunburned. As I ate with my family at the table I had sexual thoughts about my ex and about a girl who I liked. Man, the loneliness is very hard, finding the perfect girl too. What to do?...

 

best luck bro

 

I wish I know what you should do but we all have same problems girls

 

Day 16/90 completed. I could not start for running today but I will tomorrow. I need healthy habits more and more.
All best wishes brothers. Stay strong reach goals all together.

 

I have been bussy last few days. Its 3, 4, and day 5 done

 

day 89/90 completed...technically into day 90 which will be completed in few hours so its last post for this challenge...thanks everyone in this community & forum for their tremendous support & motivation else this journey could never be possible...in the last 3 months if I go into flashback there was just one time in starting when I got exposed to situation where I could relapse or reset however that doesn't impact my nofap journey...anyways after being addicted to it for 11 years I have lost everything...lost my family trust,lost my relationship,completed my 4 year academic degree in 7 years due to multiple backlogs,now unemployed...doesn't have anything to do rather than regret... I made the choice I face the consequences...still somewhere feeling better the person I was 3 months ago person I'm now...my condition was no less than addict...incase I don't access to internet I could search public wifi everywhere even sometimes walk 5 km for it to download a video or images or make weird excuses for money from parents for cyber-cafe or even access those stuff in incognito mode of any known person I met...so on whole I was complete addict with multiple M every day that I got 100% symptoms of PIED...the weird thing I never make this confession to anyone except my GF(I confessed on 13th march & then only this journey begins on 14th march) I always ensure others I'm a monk who doesn't believe in this visual pleasure but inside myself I was the demon for myself & to maintain that image I don't know how many webs of lies I have created in last several years & somewhere whole credits goes to her for motivating them else this could never be possible...come a long way facing many hurdles...people claim they change after any situation no one changes only priorities changes...earlier PMO was priority but now nofap is... I join this website in 2014 since then I was trying but all unsuccessful attempts but finally reached here...when I choose NoFap this march I know this was the end I could never see PMO as I used to...no matter what anyone says I know I still have chances to fall into the trap so better avoid it...this is my first & last time I completed this challenge...bcoz now I have learned enough control over gloomy thoughts...,thanks everyone once again...sorry for keeping it too long still few things to say I will complete those stuff in next challenges...at the last I can if I can change everyone else can its just take hard determination struggle with PMO & Depression for last 10 years at least now I have one less thing to struggle with...good luck to everyone for their journey...

 

Relapse. I don't know what to do. Motivation? thinking that pmo isn't an option? I don't think I've gone a day after thinking about pmo. I can't move it out but i can stop it.

 

I can try to just do 90 days and seeing the differences. It's like doing what your parents say even if it sounds stupid. ahh