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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by 2525, Oct 27, 2017.
Two weeks down
i feel the same thing. the longer the streak the more likely for me to forget the porn pain and start to ease my aproach. even if on day 0 i swear and curse but after some weeks, when the withdrawal hell lifts, i start to relax and change my attitude "eiii, why not take a peak?"
in the end is all the same problem: addicted brain. let´s stay strong my friend. learning and moving.
it´s normal bro, you´re gonna relapse, your mind will not surrender easily.
in fact, you need the relapses to know stuff about yourself. the important thing after a relapse is learning, knowledge is power. go bro, much love
of course you can do it. everybody can, you just have to put your all self into it. go bro
very good bro . just follow your instinct, it will take to where you want. and nofap too
yesterday night i was very tired and just lay on the couch zapping the tv. all the sudden an urge creeped in, at first i didn´t pay much attention to it, but i didn´t change my attitude either. the urge kept there, and after a while i start zapping for any kind of hot scene on tv. immediatly my eyes start flashing and the blood pumping. but nothings on. i went to bed in sadness. naturally i didn´t fucking sleep all night because of dry eyes and all kinds of sexual thoughts in my head. at 7 am i didn´t hold it anymore and start peaking some softcore in the mobile. after 30 minutes of viewing, i stopped. never touch myself.
in the morning i went to work, but my mind kept drilling for more stuff. so when i was alone at work i started peaking softcore again. after a while i stopped. i could see my mind suggest all kinds of traps "well, soft scenes aren´t that graphic..." "man, losing all that girls? no way" and so on... so i turn my chair around and start rationalizing what the hell was going on. after a while i came to the conclusion that softcore will have the same detrimental effect as porn, so if i engage in it it´s obvious that it will ruin my life like porn.
needless to say i had like 20% productive this morning cause my mind was all over the place. luckly the major things were already done, so no big damage there. at lunch i told my wife what has happened, even my strategy to watch at home. usually i share with her my screws up´s but i don´t tell her the technique to watch (so to keep it a secret...). but i´m so fed up with this shit that i just blow the all scheme. and you know what? i felt really good, really relieved. we even discuss tactics on how to prevent that from happening. sometimes is good to be brutally honest.
learning and moving my friends. onwards
Relapsed after 34 days of being clean
Starting again hoping to do better
Just getting better & better day by day...day 36/90
New habits in place now
Check in. Doing good. Need to make new habits and get off tech more often. And also just stop being lazy and procrastinating.
Its amazing isnt it, i cant miss a day off mma or a day at the gym my mind is changing rapidly the idea of stroking it away just upsets me. Grow, be higher and see further!!!
10/90 not bad flatline is forreal tho
Checkin day 81 & 82 /90
It's getting harder and harder to get out of this one. But I'm not going to let fear or shame stop me from my goal. Today I'm not going to fap
Day 13 of no PM
Day 82 of no alcohol or caffeine
Day 50 of weight training
- just checking in to say I have had some hard moments in the past 2 days since accidentally looking at porn yesterday
- needing to stay strong to resist temptation to go back and look again
- the good news is I seem very resolved with will not wanting to M or O to it
- it seems more about my brain wanting a bath in dopamine
- having who's in control here type feelings between my body and brain?
- stay strong friends!
Day 24/90, though one.