Today has been my hardest day I've ever experienced. Throughout the day and, as of now, my mind is going crazy, which has lead to not being able to focus on the tasks at uni. Just feel like relapsing, so I don't have to think about PMO and get on with the day without distraction. But I really don't want to, as I know the feeling after and don't want to go through that shame. However, I'm feeling mentally stronger. I really hope I can keep resisting this horrible urge and I encourage everyone to keep strong and not to give in.