73 days hard mode... thoughts and experiences

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by fellowBrother, Jul 13, 2019.

  1. fellowBrother

    fellowBrother Fapstronaut

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    Well, today is day 73(maybe 74?), and I just want to say that this entire process is one huge rollercoaster. I have very very good days, and then very bad days. I'm starting to see the good days become weeks, and the bad days becoming hours. I've also just recently noticed my motivation is very high because I'm randomly jumping into real-estate and starting my own business. I'm crazy motivated to become financially free. Also I want to say that I went through a 40 day flatline from day 30-ish until last week. I'm still getting urges but they are significantly easier to fight. If I do give in to them(fantasize) however, I feel all the old anxiety and depression re-appear for a short period(2-3 hours maybe). My social anxiety was primarily the reason I wanted to stop porn, and it did kind of go away in the beginning. I've noticed the periods in which I am totally mentally distant from anything sexual are the periods where I have the best social anxiety reduction. It is a daily battle but it's getting to a point where I don't think about it anymore. Feeling great.
     
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  2. danstronaut

    danstronaut New Fapstronaut

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    I also had a flatline on my first 100 day streak that started at around day 40 and ended around day 80 or 90. If I had one piece of advice to give it would be to not put to much weight into meeting a goal! I wanted to reach 90 days, which was great when I did. But after that I didn't really care anymore, which was why I relapsed. Either that or set a higher goal so that you always have a goal to chase. Good luck man!
     
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  3. fellowBrother

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    Hey that's awesome. I'm not trying to reach a goal, even though 90 is like a milestone. I'm really just trying to quit permanently to totally destroy my social anxiety and have a normal relationship. Thanks for the advice !
     

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