70 days down and still going

8 more days to hit 120. I am hoping to push it to 150 and beyond.

 

Well I have good news and bad news. The good news is that I made it to 129 days which is my highest so far. Previous best was a 100. The bad news is that I have fallen off spectacularly. The only reason my timer shows 150+ days is because I was too ashamed to come back and admit it here.
So it's back to the board again. However to try and get something out of it, I decided to see the effects of PMO after being clean for 129 days.
1) It took just over a couple of weeks before I was back to my old habits. I am spending more time looking for P which means I no longer devote time to useful activities.
2) Lack of attention and the return of a constant lurking anxiety.
3) Irritability that flares up for the smallest of things.
4) A general tendency to take the easy way out for everything from eating (junk food instead of looking for something healthy) to exercise (none) which I resist although it is getting stronger.
5) Weaker erections than I was having during my PMO-free phase.
6) A feeling of hopeless inevitability that I cannot escape this.

Still tomorrow is a new day and I plan to catch up with that wagon and get straight back on again. Next stop is 150 days.

 

Thanks vxlccm. If you don't mind me asking, what is the wife test?