Hello All, I am a 50 year old male, a Christian who seeks another Christian male as an accountability partner, preferably one who has had some success in overcoming this struggle and is around my age. I am new to this site so haven't completely familiarized myself with all that is available here yet. I have a 90 day PM goal. I am married with five children. I was first exposed to porn around ten years old (magazines in those days) and lust has wreaked havoc on my life ever since, especially with the introduction of the internet in the mid 90's. I have had periods of success (2 weeks, 3 months, almost 6 months at one time) but have never been able to sustain that success long term. I know I cannot do this alone as I typically will deceive myself in thinking that next time I can resist and exert my will over this, but after 40 years I always fail and I am foolish to think that it will be different next time unless I start doing something different beforehand. Over the years I've read several books on the subject, been to counselors, men's groups, SA groups, prayed, repented, vowed never to do it again, on and on , over and over, and yet here I am still, a slave to this darkness, with the cycle continuing as it always has. I have a lot of head knowledge on this subject, but that knowledge has not equated to a great deal of experiential success in day to day life for me unfortunately. I know this isn't who I really am or who I was created to be, I just need some help in breaking this cycle , something I have not ever been able to do on my own. Thanks for reading. I hope I can connect with one or two men that are willing to help me on this journey, and hope at some point that I can be a help to others as well.