49 days in and unbelievable results- for all the skeptics out there

I stumbled upon this site back on January 30, 2018, and I can honestly say it has undoubtedly changed my life forever.

I went through 17 or 18 years of my adolescent, young adult, and adult life, having had my mind warped by PMO and not even realizing it the entire time.

As a result of constant over-stimulation and indulgence of high speed internet porn, I had rewired my brain to expect completely unrealistic and unnatural stimulation. The physical results that have followed and plagued me throughout my life have caused countless embarrassing Moments with the many partners I have been with over the course of time, on top of the associated stress burden, and even depression, from the conclusion that this was to be my life and may never experience normalcy in my sex life.

I have suffered from PIED, which has manifested itself over the years mainly as delayed ejaculation (actually more of complete lack of ejaculation). I have been with many partners over the years (both short and long term), and at one point or another, the issues would invariably come up. I've been able to have a semblance of normal relationships at times, but sometimes with help from pills, etc.

Well I found out about nofap, which exposed a lot of these concepts that i was unaware we're taking place, about brain wiring and the damage that porn can create. I read a lot and researched a lot on the topic and it made perfect sense. I was immediately sold and decided to embark on a mission to give up PM indefinitely, but as a start, hit the 90 day mark to see what the hype was all about. I had read all the success stories of people who described very similar stories to mine and were able to heal completely. I did my best to stay optimistic, but the realist in me (more so the skeptic as it turns out..) made me doubt that this could indeed work, having suffered almost 2 decades with PIED. Anyway, I would have to try it to find out so there was no other option. I cut out PMO cold turkey that same day.

While I didn't experience a lot of the severe side effects, I did notice that within a week that I started having morning wood again, consistently.
Honestly aside from that, the next 40 or so days were pretty uneventful. While I had bad days and urges to M, I stayed strong. I did have many vivid sexual dreams throughout this period, to the extent where I actually believed I had relapsed (that's how real one of these particular dreams was) and remember waking up questioning whether I did or it was just a dream.. needless to say, the dream was just that and I didn't let it phase me. I had zero relapses the entire time, which is only due to how dedicated and committed I was to making a definitive change in my life.

Fast forward to this past weekend, st Patrick's day weekend. I joined a friend of mine out at a bar, and we met a group of girls. I hit it off with one of the girls and it was becoming more and more clear that there were very good chances we may end up together that night. Then something really interesting happened. Where in years past, there is absolutely no doubt that I would've started panicking hardcore by then, already foreshadowing how disappointing the night would end up being. That said, I was surprisingly calm and relaxed. I had a few drinks in me which probably contributed to my calmness (definitely enough alcohol in me to have compounded my performance issues in the past).

Fast forward to that night and sure enough I find myself with her at her place and we start fooling around. *typically* by now my heart would be racing, as would my mind, from overthinking and stressing about whether I'll be able to perform this time (which I mostly likely wouldn't have been able to) but strangely, I was not thinking about ANY of that. I found myself inadvertently "in the moment". Considering the amount of alcohol in me, the equipment functioned perfectly. I was able to penetrate and not lose my erection. We went at it for a few and then something happened that prior to this, would've been unheard of for me: I was in the moment, doing my thing, and low and behold, felt the magical tingle and was about to orgasm, And i did. And it was a totally different feeling from any other time before. While I've been able to come at times in the past, it took extremely long (multiple goes, hours at a time sometimes) and INTENSE fantasizing, splicing together some of the dirtiest, most vivid porn scenes in my mind lol. This time however, it happend 100% organically, and I finally understood what was meant by being "in the moment". At no point did I escape reality and revert to fantasizing, or was even actively thinking of whether I was going to come or not. It felt like my mind was not even conscious of these doubts and questions and stressors, and instead just focused on enjoying the sensation. It felt AMAZING.

So after that, i got a little too overzealous and we went at it again maybe 15min or so later, but by then I think it was more of my refractory period than anything else and was while I did get hard and penetrated with no problems, I was not able to come. I was okay with that and didn't stress over it. Like I said I attributed it to refractory period and being tired/drunk etc.

The real test was the following morning. I woke up next to her and felt very turned on. She was also in the same mood so we started fooling around and ultimately started having sex. Again, the equipment functioned, although I will say that it was probably only around 70%-80% hard at first, it was enough to penetrate and once I got going, it got harder.
Then about 10 or so minutes in, low and behold, the same tingly feeling and I'm thinking wow!! I'm about to come!! And yes I did finish again. It all went pretty much textbook. I would never have imagined for the life of me that I'd be able to finish let alone finish that quick, with a girl I just met. That had NEVER happened before. The times I was able to finish in the past required a long term gf I was comfortable with, and lots of fantasizing in my head. It was so textbook that the skeptic in me still wonders if I'll be able to have similar success again down the road or if this was just a fluke lol

I'll finish by saying this-

FOR ANYONE WHO READ MY STORY, AND CAN RELATE AND HAVE LOST HOPE THAT THEY CAN BE HEALED: TRUST ME, I TOO WAS A SKEPTIC AND NEVER THOUGHT RESULTS WOULD BE SO DRASTIC. PLEASE, give it a chance. Pick a target, 90 days etc, but don't dwell on the number, just don't think about PMO anymore. Put the energy into something else. Remove it from your life. Stay strong and try not to relapse because it's worth every minute of abstinence at the end of the journey. The results are well worth it.

I am most certainly not 100% cured and may never be, but from now on, the only O I plan on having is from real sex, with a real partner from now on. PM can never feel as good, ever, period. So I may never be cured 100%, as some element to the addiction might remain dormant but I will do all in my will power to never reawaken it. I'm hopeful to see how the next sexual encounter pans out, and am staying very positive that I have made incredible improvements from that rock bottom point January 30 when I decided enough was enough.

I really hope if nothing else, that my story can help inspire someone else who is suffering from PIED, to become hopeful as well. If I was able to do it, so can you.


Link to my original post, back on Jan 30:

https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/new-and-hoping-to-find-help.153946/

 

Best of luck man, don't give up hope, gotta have trust in your body's ability to heal itself, it's not an overnight process but it is a real thing and it works. The mind is an amazing thing, having a positive outlook and not giving up hope might sound cliche but trust me, it's not bullshit (coming from a skeptic like me, it's saying a lot)

 

Thank you all, and I hope to read all of your success stories soon as well. Sharing my story was the least I could do to give back to this community, which has helped me and provided me with support along the way

 

To be honest I had a bit of a stumbling block over the weekend. It had been 20+ days of a dry spell since Having had the positive experience I described in the post, and on Saturday night, I spent the night at a girl'a place that I have been recently dating. While I didn't have the confidence issues I would have had in the past (thinking now that I was to an extent healed and back to normal), and was able to get and maintain an erection, I was not able to finish. I found myself again reverting to fantasizing to try to get the job done to no avail. This got me frustrated again and I ended up relapsing the next day out of frustration (m only, without P). I'm kicking myself for being weak in that moment where I had been so much stronger the first 70 days . I am staying positive and just going back to the formula that I know worked. I will be hard booting again, it probably means I'll have to end things with this girl but honestly, I'm not even sure I was really into her to begin with. But anyway, don't let this deter you from staying steadfast if you are hard rebooting. Life has ups and downs. I know the reboot process works because I experienced it first hand. Patience is key. I may have been overzealous after the success I had a few weeks back, and maybe needed some more time I don't know, but I'll be more patient this time.

Good luck

 

Thank you guys! And likewise, best of luck and stay strong

 

Sorry for the late reply, things have been steady, i had a bit of a set back about three weeks ago, where I had sexy with a girl I dated briefly and i was not able to finish. The next day I stupidly relapsed (m'd but no P). Since then I've been back to no PMO and have not had any urges etc. I'm doing a hard reboot at this point and avoiding dating sites etc to not fall into dating someone/sex before I have had a long reboot period. I know it can be done, as I have experienced it. i will be patient this time around