43 day is great but I want to be free totally

I had to check for sure, I thought I was at 30 , but it's good to be wrong sometimes. what happened? It was supernatural. I think my freedom from porn was attached to my surrendering to Jesus in a big area in my life. I went on a trip with my wife to a Christian conference, I go every year, but before I left I closed up my tango account where I was talking to someone about my marriage problems. Word of advice, no matter how innocent it may start, talking to another woman for advice in marriage is a terrible idea even if the woman is older. Emotions can get involved and you will start to depend on the confidant for the emotional needs rather than your wife. I got out of it, and I'm grateful it never got physical. From that I learned that if your not careful, any man can fall in marriage. I am never going to do that again.
I made a step of faith about how I was going to live my life. I trusted Jesus make it happened and not in just one area ,porn and mast$&@$&& is 43 days gone.
Right now I understand the feeling when I read the success stories of others being free. I have confidence. I can look woman in the eyes when I'm alone with them, before I felt uncomfortable, now I think to myself this is like my sister another human being to share and know. I talk smoother easier now, people listen when I talk because I believe their is something more than fluff behind my words, there is conviction Perversion was like these sunglasses you wear dimming your view of the world. I am happy also. Another crazy thing, if you read my past post about my issues with my wife, how she didn't seem as interested in sex as I was and how I didn't feel desired, it's pretty much the same, as far as the sex not being as much as I want it. (At least 3x week) we are busy ppl, but our physical relationship is more passionate now and I can tell she enjoys it. We still are working on it and it's not a bad thing to work on . In the past I would be tempted and escape through porn or talking to the other woman for comfort, but now I don't. I'm learning to deal with life by allowing God to fill that area and not only that one area but every need.

60 days is over on the 21st of Sept. I'll make it and I'll keep on going. I heard that true pleasure can be only gain through virtue and purity. I see now that that's true. I'm addicted to my wife now rather than my former 15 year porn addiction. Above all, it's my faith in Jesus that fills my thirst everyday.

I hope this encourages you, 60 days isn't to end for me, it's the end of the beginning.

Thanks for reading and responding.

 

That's great No_Hentai. Great job on reaching one of your goals. This is something I was thinking about this weekend and shared it with a few: a tree can only grow one kind of fruit, we know an apple tree by the apples we see on it's branches, for good or bad a tree is known by it's fruit. If the roots of the tree are weak, diseased, shallow then the hidden things ( the weakness the sick, the diseased of those roots) will be seen in the fruits. We can be like trees No_hentai. The fruit represent the things we do or say good or bad. The roots represents our heart because it's the essence of what we do. It Start in the heart. My question to you and all who read this is, how can we heal, cure, fix our heart? Because from out of it comes the issues of life

 

Yeah you joke Ekhangel but prescription medicine is not the cure. America is one of the most technologically advanced and developed countries ever known. Yet America takes up most of the prescribed medicine in the world. We need more assistance with our emotional lives than all other nations. Why is that?
Medicine can't fix the heart, it's where desire comes from. It's where ideas produce thoughts and thoughts produce mindsets then ,in our case, produce actions, then a character, then a habit, then a addiction.

 

Thank you bmw4real. I got help and got desperate. It's crazy how my mind makes images sexual. It's the programming. Somewhere in my past, sex became a chronic medicine and not what it's soppose to be, an act inside a committed marriage. I needed sex/porn to calm me down and get my mind off something empty or frustrating in my life. It was how I dealt with my problems. When no particular thing was wrong I still watched it cause of boredom. I was bored of life. That's the real problem. Porn is not our problem it's the effect. The root is in what we believe our lives are to be lived for. Boredom is the result, bored of life.
I love paintball. I'm tactically inclined and I have full expression of that in paintball. Aggression, passion, victory, and friendship are the things I enjoy in it and I know those who love to play it know what i mean. Those feelings you feel takes you millions of miles from wanting to watch porn and mast#%*+*#. Real life makes porn look like a mud hole in comparison. But here's the question. How can we feel like that all the time? Without the use of drugs. We need real life.

 

Thanks Vision. I am sorry about your marriage.

 

Thank you Hopepeacelove. You can be porn free. It's not a bad thing to want to be free. "Seek and you will find, knock and it will be opened" J.C.

 

Your right Ekhangel. You're not bigot-ish if you refuse to use social media as an open door for someone else, other than your wife, in your marriage.

 

Your teaching me now Ekhangel. Trust is assumption. Assuming you can't fall is blind arrogance. Your right. Thanks for sharing