[365-CHALLENGE] THE THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 12- I am feeling ridiculously happy and hopeful this morning. I still had to battle the urges hard yesterday. The feeling of victory is just amazing. A day at a time and I will win.

Benefit 7:My hormonal imbalance will normalize if I walk away from PMO.

 

2 Days

 

Day 6.

 

53 days and counting!

 

i started dry fasting for 7 days in arrow again after my new fall off,fasting makes one feel in control and light.

 

effective and useful method you are applying,it is also informative and inspiring for others ,
God bless you.

 

After facing with my main problem in life ,not having a thoughtful family,i fell off yesterday.
actually i was out and the begining of this slip start with seeing a curvy woman(actually she sounds curvy in my eyes and view and the truth is she is not athletic and slim and have a large amount of fat around her hip) then the craving thoughts came into my mind and then the day after that thinking about having a relationship with my sister after a year made me feel bad (cause she deliberately was mean to me)and in that situation the triggers had more power over me. i was searching for a peach garden on google then i saw some triggers that i used to be aroused with them ,i don't know why i continue till i ended up watching porn ,a one specific pornstar that was a trigger for me and after watching about 2 hour i Pmo'ed once and then i Mo again .
then i had a very serious argument about my sister with my mother which was always was in her side despite any circumstances that she causes and i said to her that i don't wanna see her again ,she was the person who trying to lower me and disparage and belittle me.
i came to the conclusion that whenever i think about my family this result in relapses and escaping from reality toward a new drug called porn.
other wise i feel good, i am trying to find a way to solve this problem once and for all.
so any suggestion would be appreciated my brothers and sisters.
not to mention i had reached to the body states that i had a control over my breathing which i have never had it and it was giving me a very good feeling toward my relationship with others and also a good feeling of being in present but after relapse i had a bad headach from yesterday to today due to hormonal imbalance and also a very bad feeling in my entire body and especially in my abdominal part i mean my stomach.
i decided to dry fasting for seven days in arrow and then continue it with on day off and one day fasting.
God bless you

 

Hey! Sorry you had to undergo such emotional turmoil. This is what generally leads us to seek to escape reality. Those emotions are very uncomfortable.

I don't know what advice to give you about your sister. All i know is that you will have to find a way to let go of that resentment that you harbor in your heart. For me, I resented my father for a long time because of being an absentee father, always working but never there emotionally for me as a child. He was so harsh also. I blamed him for all that is wrong with my life. But during my first streak of 61 days, I came to terms with it somehow. I think when we PMO we suppress those negative emotions and they become trapped in us somehow. We are supposed to feel those emotions and learn to detach from them. In my opinion, going all those days without PMO allowed the emotions come to the fore and I started to look at things even from my father's perspective. I learned more about my father's past and what he had to go through to provide for us as a family.
I decided to take responsibility for my emotional health and stop giving control to my father. My relationship with my father has improved measurably. We even watched world cup soccer matches together in some instances. That would have never happened if it was not for my first streak in my opinion. Our relationship is still a little frosty but it is a start.

In essence, I believe you must stick the course of PMO freedom and let the suppressed emotions come up to the fore and heal. You might not have a good relationship with your sister but you can learn to let go of the resentment you have for her. At least do your part. Control what you can. The rest that you can't control is not for you to be anxious about.

All the best!

 

49 days
One thing that has dragged on for more than a month has finally come to an end. One and a half months ago, the logistics company lost my goods, and they paid me today. I made dozens of complaints during this period.
Yes, I won, a small victory. It is the result of the continuous negotiation with them. If this happens to me when I am addicted to pornography, it is impossible. This time, I was not angry and not overly aggressive. It's just a constant phone call every day.
Bless you all

 

Day 14

 

Day 93.

 

Day 6 completed

 

Anime are full of it ... Other reason could also be that we are too biased towards thinking in that manner...

 

We all have specific triggers ... These triggers were build for a long time ... We have to be conscious about our thoughts ... The triggers can be there, but we just don't give as much importance to it ... Commit to better life my friend ... Not thinking about older ways and how family gets you into trouble ... Don't create a habit out of things that don't help you to rise in a better human ...

 

Hi all, I have opened a new channel. This is the first time I am sharing this with a group. If you have some time please look into it and tell me about the negatives or the positives of the channel. It will be very helpful for me and to anyone who wants to rise in same direction.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1nANIZyAXFVykM4wRvplbQ

Thank you for your time.

 

Day 19/365

 

Today is day 119 out of 365 God bless everyone it's amazing what is out there in the world and keeps his challenged all the time it's possible to put on a blinders but then you would miss the beautiful things in the world it's too bad you can just can't put Rose colored glasses on and see what you need to see but I think that's what God is for. My wife said she's not ready to resume having sex I'm going to take this all the way to the distance.

 

7 Days/365 without pmo of posting on this thread (in reality there are 9)
One week already, and I have to say there was no chance for me to slip because every time I come here I get really motivated, you guys inspire me, I remember why I started and I want to thank you all for being such a good community.
Keep going everyone!

 

Day 0/365, on the road to recovering my true identity and living the live of the man who I am truly meant to be. Let's go. I will never give up on myself. I will keep doing nofap until I succeed!

 

10/365 I'm so happy to be the part of this community!