30 days monk mode: Day 28, I fucked up.

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  1. Maekoli

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    Hey there fellows.

    This is my very first day of the challenge.

    I've done a previous 30 day challenge where the objective was not to watch porn or have an orgasm. I'd still check cosplay hotties in Instagram and jerk off a bit avoiding the climax. I completed that challenge without problems.

    This time it's going to be different. I'm embarking on a PMO challenge.

    I know it's not going to be easy.

    Wishing you all great success on your path.
     
  2. Brooklyn Jerry69

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    After over 2 months of no PMO I fell off the wagon on Saturday.I have to blame it on my using young the search on Instagram. During my previous attempts at NoFap I did allow my self to edge,I have found that's just as bad as PMO for me.It sure wastes many hours and eventually leads to ED due to loss of sensitivy. Best thing is to leave your dick alone
     
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  3. Maekoli

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    I feel you, bro. Congratulations on holding on for 60 days, that's a feat in and of itself.
    I guess the best thing to do is to leave the dick the fuck alone.
    Thanks for your message and keep it up.
     
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  4. Maekoli

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    One day has passed by and i had no problems so far :D
    I unfollowed certain IG accounts that were providing sexy pics.
    I'm also using Norton DNS servers to filter my wifi connection traffic. This way i won't be able to reach porn sites so easily.

    199.85.126.20
    199.85.127.20

    It's going to be tough but i'm willing to do it.
    Whenever i need inspiration for discipline, i check some Jocko Willink videos on youtube:

     
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  5. Maekoli

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    I've already experienced some positive effects of withholding masturbation.
    Last night after my improv class, i drove a female classmate home and we ended up kissing.
    It was not great and we did not end up having sex but i moved forward nevertheless.

    GOOD WORK, BRO (i tell myself :) )
     
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  6. Maekoli

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    Another immediate effect of avoiding PMO are better erections.
    It's a better quality erection.
    A more healthy one.
    The porn induced erection gives shame to the dick.
    The natural erection makes the dick feel proud of itself.
    Don't give your dick a lame erection.
    Let it rise on it's own.
     
  7. Bogo Biggins

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    Honestly cannot see the point in edging. Surely, the only thing about this is it tells you your no pmo strategy isn't good enough and needs more improvement? There have to be better ways to have a good life than edging?
     
  8. Maekoli

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    I agree with you.

    I think edging is like going to the candy store to watch people buy and eat candy after the doctor told you you cannot eat any of it.

    Why the fuck would you get so close to the temptation?

    I've done it in my previous challenge and even though i did not succumb to the temptation, i suffered a bit.
     
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  9. Maekoli

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    First week of 90 days PMO free challenge.

    Yesterday i went on a date and we did not end up having sex.

    We kissed though.

    In any other moment of my life i would have gone back to my house and jerked off like a madman.

    Not last night :)
     
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  10. Maekoli

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    I edged last nite.

    Was alone with my computer at night and somehow opened a porn site i used to visit.

    It was an automatic thing i did. My brain suggested it and i did not doubt it for a second.

    My porn filter failed and i got to the site. I browsed some thumbnails and then thought "i should not be doing this" and closed the browser tab.

    A minute later i googled one of my favorite phrases: "bikini big ass" and started browsing the pics. I ended up finding pictures of probably my all time favorite Playboy bunny, Patricia Ford. Holly shit, i had forgotten about her. Probably the woman i have most jerked off to.

    I spent a good thirty minutes watching pics and stroking my dick.

    I did not orgasm. I went to bed. I jerked off a bit again watching some ass pics i had in my phone that i *forgot* to delete.

    I did not orgasm.

    Fell asleep.

    That was close.
     
  11. Maekoli

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    I got laid last night.

    GOOD STUFF!!

    I'm happy about it because one of the reasons why i started my NOFAP challenge is so i can improve my relationship with women.

    I don't know what the "official" NOFAP 90 day challenge rules say about intercourse but i will not consider that orgasm and release as an interruption to my challenge.

    I did not watch porn or masturbate. I did have an orgasm (and it was awesome) but due to sex with a real human being and not with my hand.

    Man o man how good it felt.

    There's definitely a correlation between abstaining from jerking off to netporn and being more attractive to women. BOTH times in my life i entered a masturbation/porn free challenge, i ended up having sex with women after ten days or so i started it.

    Let's keep up the good work, shall we??

    Cheers.
     
  12. fhritp

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    You sound like a badass man. You've got women coming at you left and right. Can you explain what you are doing that seems to work for you? Thanks and keep up the good work.
     
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  13. Maekoli

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    Hello fhritp, thanks for your words.
    I don't think there's women coming at me left and right, i'm just taking advantage of the situations that pop-up around me.

    The first woman i had sex with i met when i went to the theatre to watch a play written by a friend. She was a friend of his too who watched the play. After the theatre, we all went to a bar. We talked there and connected. I thought she was pretty. When the night ended my friend openly suggested i drive her home (that's a good friend!). I took her home but nothing happened. A week or so later we had a date and we kissed and fucked.

    The second woman i had sex with i met at my improv class. She lives by my house and a couple of times i drove her home. One time we went for drinks but nothing happened. On another occasion i drove her home and i was a bit tipsy so i kissed her on the lips. That was it. One week later we went on a date and ended up having sex.

    I think the basic philosophy is be always moving the "project" forward. If you like her, you talk to her. If she talks back, you get her phone. If you get her phone, you set a date. If you go on a date, you kiss her, etc etc. I think you get the idea.

    Cheers.
     
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  14. Maekoli

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    Lately i've been heavy edging.

    I have not watched any porn videos but i can't help to google pictures of big asses and tits.

    I seem to enjoy the "torture" that edging actually is.

    I mean what is the fucking point of edging if i'm trying to abstain from jerking off.

    Like going to a McDonald's just to smell the food when you're on diet.

    Anyone out there have any tips on how to not fall for this trap of quickly googling for asses and tits to edge a bit?
     
  15. I don't see any other way than willpower. As soon as I notice myself doing it, I should shut my eyes, relax, take a few deep breaths to calm myself and then silently say "No thanks." I then open my eyes, log off and walk away from the device.
     
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  16. myspirithurt

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    Don’t compare it to just smelling the food at McDonald’s while you are on a diet.

    It’s more like you are purchasing a full Big Mac meal, chewing it slowly, then spitting it out piece by piece, just not swallowing. Then you are blending up your mess into liquid form and injecting it into your system through a feeding tube to make sure you still get the calories and fat that go with it.
     
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  17. Maekoli

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    If it's sheer willpower, then i'm fucked. Haha, just kidding.
    Thanks for your input.
    I will remember your words.
     
  18. Maekoli

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    Loved your analogy.
    I guess this is the most difficult part of the whole challenge for me so far.
    Not being able to do it 110%.
    I have not ejaculated or watched porn, but i still find comfort and consolation in googling naked arses and edging to them.
    Thank you for your input.
     
  19. Maekoli

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    Ok, it's porn then.
    What i meant is videos of people having sex and stuff which is what i consider to be "bad" for me.
     
  20. Looking at photos yet trying to stop before you go full on is like sticking your D in a V, “Just a little in.” Eventually, you’re going full bore.
     
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