30 Days Hard Mode COMPLETE

Just a few hours ago I completed 30 Days Hard Mode and I feel amazing. The change I have experienced throughout these 30 days have been incredible.

My life before Day 1

• Overweight (185 cm at 95 kg, BMI at 27.8)
• Severe acne on face, chest and back. I have a lot of acne scarring. Mostly red scars.
• PMO once, sometimes twice or more every day.
• Severe depression (I scored 62+/100 according to Burns-Depression-Checklist, a self-diagnosis test from a book called Feeling Good.)
• I hated myself, thinking I was unlovable.
• People didn't seem to like to talk to me.
• Poor concentration, both in freetime and at work.
• Really bad posture. I was hunching a lot.
• Really sucky mood.
• Very bad self-esteem. I felt inferior to practically anyone I met.
• Pretty non-existant motivation to do anything. I only played video games in the free time, watched series on Netflix, or surfed on the internet.
• I was really afraid of talking to strangers.
• I wasn't initiative at all. I only responded to when others took initiative to do stuff.

My life at Day 30

• Significant weight loss (87 kg, MBI at 25.4)
• Only minor acne on face, chest. Some acne on back but not a significant amount. Acne scars have faded significantly.
• No PMO at all. Currently in a flatline.
• Mild depression (I scored 24/100 according to Burns Depression Check)
• I don't hate myself, I genuinly like the guy looking back at me from the mirror.
• People respond to me better. I am having longer conversations involving a few laughs here and there.
• Much better concentration.
• Much better posture.
• Very improved mood, I look happier as well.
• Self-esteem has improved significantly, allthough I am not happy with where it currently is at. I still feel inferior to a lot of people.
• I have a very good motivation to do anything. I have only played video games for 2 hours this entire month. No Netflix. A lot of surfing on the internet, mostly on NoFap and to read up on methods for self improvement.
• I am still relatively afraid of talking to strangers.
• I am still not very initiative when it comes to social aspects. I have improved in this regard, but only slightly.
• But the biggest change of all, I am much more aware of what I and others do. A really weird feeling.

Withdrawal syptoms:

• My sleeping pattern is all messed up. Still is. I slept much better before doing this NoFap stuff. Nowadays, I can snooze for an hour in the morning before going to work, and I usually wake up one or two or more times during my sleep. I have trouble falling asleep as well.
• I had to pee like every hour or so during week 2 and 3.
• My body aches sometimes.
• Got very intense toothache but my teeth were all fine when checked by a dentist.
• Increased social anxiety for the first two weeks. Really sucky concentration during this period.
• I have so far expereinced two flatlines. I am currently in the second one.

What did I do to make it this far?

• Exercise regularly (4-6 times a week) + Long walks
• No PMO at all. No movies involving sex. No YouTube content with sexual content (dancing, yoga, jokes, pranks or whatever)
• I read a lot (Feeling Good, The Untethered Soul, Your Brain on Porn, How to make people ike you in 90 seconds or less, The 5 Love Languages, The Meditating Cat + a lot of online articles)
• I applied a lot of the practical tips mentioned in Feeling Good, such as identifying and writing down destructive thoughts and thinking patterns.
• I eat healthier food. No sugar. I started drinking tea and started taking Vitamin E and Zinc supplements as well.
• I shower twice a day. I also started following a much more strict skin regime. Facial Cleanser + Benzyl Peroxide + Moisturizer every morning and evening. After day 18 I also started applying Lemon Juice on my face before going applying the Benzyl Peroxide in the evenings.
• I started listening to a lot of classical music and intstrumental movie music.

Conclusion
I read somewhere on nofap.com that NoFap is a catalyst and I whole-heartily agree. NoFap is not itself the solution but it will help you find motivation and energy for you to start changing your life.

 

According to some scientific studies, a lack in vitamin E and zinc will cause acne.

 

Yeah, I can definately see a correlation between increased use of PMO and more acne. I have read that it could be due to hormonal disturbances caused by frequent masturbation + ejaculation triggering spikes of DHT which is somewhat correlated to kerratin production. Kerratin is a resilient protein which binds cell skin together, living cells as well as dead cells. THis makes it more difficult for dead cells to be removed which increases clogging of pores. So my acne is definately better just because I have stopped with masturbation (and PMO).