27 y/o newbie.

Hi there, I'm 27 years old from the UK. I am a full-time university student, hoping to overcome my addiction to pornography.

I have been using pornography for approximately 15 years. I started out masturbating to pictures of half-naked women I found in the back of Playstation magazines (in the AD section), during my first year of high school, because I was being teased for not being sexually active. After a while, this escalated to online pornography, and quickly became an addiction.

I can't remember what my life was like before pornography, but I think that since starting, it has had a negative impact on my mental health, i.e. I believe it has made me shy and anxious in social situations. I have tried many times to quit pornography, but always relapse around the 1 week mark. I feel it has affected my relationships in the past, because I have not been honest with my ex girlfriends. None of them (even to this day) know about my struggle with porn - nor do my parents.

I am currently single, and do not want to embark on a new relationship until I have overcome my addiction - which is why I want to overcome it as soon as possible, so that I can start dating again, and maybe start a family of my own!

Today marks my new "NO PMO" journey. I watched porn and masturbated yesterday just before midnight, and decided that today would be the day I would, once again, try to stop. I am aiming for 90 days of the so-called "hard mode"... No porn... no masturbation... no orgasm. Of course, I don't want to stop at 90 days, but I feel if I can make it to 90 days, I may be free from the addiction... or maybe not? I'll have to see.

Thank you for taking the time to read this - I'll keep you all up-to-date on a weekly basis, to let you know how I'm getting on.

Cheers!

 

Thank you Hros!