21 days down the crapper

Hi Tiger Uppercut. Good job on getting to 21. Yep, mistakes are a sign of growing. Remember, be gentle with yourself, and forgive yourself. Don't get to attached to a day count, just be in the present day. If you work a good program today it will create more mental defense against that possible slip. If you don't work enough of a program eventually that mental defense won't be there when you need it, and you'll slip. That's something I learned clearly enough that I work a solid program each day now but I could always lose interest and slip again. Sometimes working my nofap program bores me. Also sometimes the feelings that come up are too much and I want to shut down. So far I'm not letting myself shut down though. Once I shut down it might take a week or two to totally forget all my recovery stuff and then I can slip. Until then I will still have some resistance. But I don't plan on that. Just to keep coming back each day.

 

I'm sure you are making progress. It would be better than PMO every day. It's probably right at the level you're meant to be at right now. It will get better

Yeah for me by program I pretty much mean checking here. And then I do some outside stuff for my "personal development". Sorry if some material here is a trigger for you. People are sposed to use spoiler tags but sometimes they don't. I don't find alot triggering because it usually sounds like the person wants relief from acting out, and thats why they're writing it. But if you tend to feel more triggered then that's tricky. Theres some things about nofap forums I dislike... Overall though I think it does more good than harm because I'm still clean. Just had to deal with adversity at times. But then again even on PMO there is adversity. I found myself very disturbed by some P--- videos without intended to click on something like that. Like it turned out to be something mean or abusive. So PMO was definitely not safe either.

You're welcome Tiger Uppercut! And thank you too. It helps me out to have conversations like this. Helps to reinforce staying clean. So thanks for your help sir!