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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by 2525, Sep 9, 2017.
Right, I need to readdress this. Since I have last here I have gone back to the 3 day a couple of times, and the 7, which I have not managed. I KNOW that I have done that one before, which may be a minor factor in not being that motivated. There are obviously other factors!
Anyway, this challenge represents a proper mile stone for me. 19 days is my longest streak ever! So if I can complete this then I will be super proud. It will mean something. Plus I will hopefully notice the difference in me!
It is so strange that I can have a day like today where I am super confident that I am over P and really have no interest in it any more, then, out of nowhere, wander in to some kind of trance like autopilot state where I find myself emerged. Then I kind of snap out of it after, regretting it. There is even a little voice in my head telling me to stop! When I am going through the preparations, but I don't listen! That voice needs to get louder and more confident.
So, today is day 1. Again!
Day 6 feeling stronger this time, I opened up to a friend about my addiction. He’s a good dude and understands the struggle. It’s amazing how just telling someone about it can give you so much strength.
Im in for winning until I reach a girlfriend or some success. Lets do it!
Before today 19 days was the longest time I managed to keep away from PM. This time I decided to open up to my wife and to a friend about my struggle with porn and masturbation and how I felt that it was affecting my life and keeping me from being a productive and happy human being. He is a great guy and was very supportive and understanding. After talking about it I felt that the urges to keep coming back to pornography are no longer as strong as they were the other times I tried to fight them by myself.
From this experience I perceived that porn (and masturbating to it) is a habit/addiction that grows in the dark, it gets stronger in the secrecy and it can consume you and rule over you if you are too ashamed to be real with someone you can trust to support you.
So, I encourage you to follow the example of "i want to stopplzz" (whom I quote in the end of this post) and myself. Make a list of your friends you trust the more and narrow it down to those that you feel that can be supportive in this time of struggle. Go ahead and talk to at least one guy about it. You'll see that it can give you a new hope and new energy to fight this battle. I believe you can overcome porn, but you don't need to walk this path alone and in secrecy.
Thank you for the advice I have thought about it a little bit, but normally dismiss it. I will give it more serious consideration and see if I can think of someone that will be understanding.
21 of 21. Bye mates
bravos thanos .. best of luck for endgame (90days)
day 16/21 . had night fall ...was a straight dream.
Day 3/21. Things are going well - was generally quite good yesterday, though still caught my eyes wandering during the day. Just meditated and feel nice and calm. Hope I can channel this the rest of the day.
haha. Thanks mate
Resisted this morning. Keep reminding myself that I am better than this and that I want more out of life. PMO will not help me on to the path that I want to travel.
Day 2 begins
Been taking a break from the forums recently, was on a mini vacay. But now I’m ready to start anew. I relapsed yesterday so today marks Day 0 of 21
day 17 of 21again night fall happened first was straight dream and then was a weird dream btw
Day 4/21. Wasn't good at all with the ogling yesterday. Going to need to be a lot more strict with myself.