200 days - Relapsed - My thoughts on how to learn from it

As much as i thought i would never write this post again, it happened, and it did so on the longest streak i have ever been on - 200 days. Impressive for me really, i used to pmo at least once a day sometimes even worse and felt like complete shit every day, all day.

I hate to admit this but even though I am quite strong yesterday it got me and i let my guard down...you cant even imagine how tempting it was to go on a binge, but i promised myself i wouldnt and that i still have to win this fight once and for all.

After relapsing my initial thoughts were something along the lines of.. "what the hell have you just done......................200 days gone down the toilet......here goes the depression and anxiety and insecurity and low self esteem and everything you felt back in the day". To sum it up i felt guilty, i felt like i lost, felt like all my progress was lost, that just like that, in a second, shit can hit the fan REAL fast.

But hey, i went 200 days specialising in what triggers my urges, i coped with most of them, did my best to become a great person and change my attitude towards things, actually TRYING to do something when it comes to girls rather than just waiting for stuff to happen (which by the way, it doesnt. Screw the "great things come to those who wait" quote. F that. Great things come to those who go out and f***ing earn it) and it was overall a good experience, even though i have had PAWS and WITHDRAWALS quite often, i learned that they go by as time passes and that what you feel will soon be replaced by a beautiful sense of liberation, freedom and will to do stuff with your life.

Guys, you need to fail 100 times before you can succeed just once. Remember this.

WE ALL FAIL, WE ALL SCREW IT UP, but really there is no point in quitting. Yes you can be depressed because you failed. Yes you can be sad and cry because you failed. BUT UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES SHOULD YOU QUIT. We're all here to fight and i know that through months and months of relapses, we will all eventually succeed.

LEARN FROM IT, MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT, AND NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER LET YOUR GUARD DOWN.



Some personal tips for avoiding just what i have been through:

-If you feel a big urge to PMO and you think you'll do it, go on the nofap website and click the emergency button and look at several posts and images, that'll help you tremendously and help you understand its REALLY not worth it.

-Do something else and keep yourself busy

-Acknowledge your trigger points and try to avoid them as much as possible

-I never used porn blockers and never will (personally). What my main problem was was the mental game. The physical habit went away easily. What i had to really fight was the urge to fantasise, which ultimately made me relapse. So if you have problems with that, just think of you driving your dream car, with your favourite tunes on, just driving on the highway, cruising... this always helps me get my head off pmo.

 

Hey guys, glad to see such a positive response from y`all!
Would love to hear more from you on this thread if there`s anything to be spoken about.
Even though i relapsed, i went on and did what i fantasized about all this time to get it out of the way and make sure it isnt a problem anymore. I`ve yet to feel the consequences, even though i already feel short-tempered but i guess that`ll go away 1 week in.

thanksss