2 months without P - Shemales

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Joe92, Feb 10, 2019.

  1. Joe92

    Joe92 Fapstronaut

    Hello brothers,

    I'm here to share my experience as it is. I know a lot of people come here to see wonderful stories and endless lists of benefits experienced from NoFap. I have some, but not only.

    I feel it is important to share with you because I've noticed there are few stories of long-term recoveries from shemale porn, and a whole lot of people struggling with this and doubts with their sexuality...

    So to give some background quickly... I've been hooked on porn since I was 13. Always been straight as an arrow, fantasising about nearly every girl and woman I saw, have had great relationships with them, sexually and romantically, until depression and HOCD hit me.

    I've been trying to stop porn for 3 years now, and always relapsed. The first time I started to quit, I wasn't into shemale porn. It came after, and got me turning half-crazy...

    I've decided to go seek help in therapy, about 5-6 months ago and to keep trying to stop porn. I haven't seen any for 64 days.

    What I can tell for now :

    - A whole lot less anxiety, though it can hit me from time to time.
    - Feeling a whole lot better in society.
    - Have been in a new relationship with a girl for 1 month and experience a healthy sex life. She knows everything about my issues and helps me through it.
    - HOCD slowly fades away.
    - Girls are more attracted to me.
    - Urges for porn are nearly gone, but still have urges for fantasies and MO. I choose to allow myself M, because I really want to quit porn this time, I don't consider M as a problem in itself.

    Now, what I want to share is that it is not easy at all, even 2 months after quitting. It is not linear. Some days I still feel depressed, anxious but it goes away faster. I still dream about hardcore porn scenes at night and still have fantasies that bother me. Less though.

    But this time, I won't escape in porn, or escorts, or massage parlors. I don't want to anymore. I will continue staying away from this and continue my therapy until I love myself again. This time, I keep in mind that even if it is not perfect, deep healing takes a lot of time, a lot of honesty with oneself, a lot of suffering to.

    I will make a longer post when I'll feel really FREE from all of this.

    But I already feel a lot better, I am no longer isolated in my room everyday, I feel a lot more confident, I feel a lot less shame and guilt and I know it will keep getting better and better if I do my work and be kind to myself.

    Stay strong fellas !
     
  2. SirErnest

    SirErnest Fapstronaut

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    Good work mate! Look forward to hearing more.
     
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  3. BioDegradableLuke

    BioDegradableLuke Fapstronaut

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    Hey joe,

    Woow so strange. Its the same story with me! I started with 14 pmo, just a few times. The first time shemale-porn maybe hot me with 25 or so but just rarely. Although i dont have HOCD. I am straight. Pmo just twisted all my wires in my brain. Currently on day 11, heaving 2 days of heavy urging but feel so proud i didnt masturbated or visited a prostitute. I am done with pmo. I want to be free so much!
     
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  4. Joe92

    Joe92 Fapstronaut

    Thanks SirErnest.

    Merci mon voisin suisse !
     
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  5. BioDegradableLuke

    BioDegradableLuke Fapstronaut

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    A votre service, monsieur!
     
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  6. happymiles

    happymiles New Fapstronaut

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    I use this method for 22 days! Thank you!
     
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  7. happymiles

    happymiles New Fapstronaut

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    What did you feel in the first month?
     
  8. DonLez95

    DonLez95 Fapstronaut

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    Hi read my story if u have time to its bit long but i wanted to cover everything im fighting with these urges to see shemale escorts and watch ts porn its sometimes very difficult to imagine life without it but ive never went more than month without it but hopefully this time i wont go back no more its my 3rd week today after relapsing of one month nofap
     
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  9. Joe92

    Joe92 Fapstronaut

    Strong urges, guilt, shame, anxiety, depression, fatigue...

    Just go through, light is on the other side.

    My psychiatrist helps me a lot by talking about my fantasies only as symptoms and attempts for recovery.
     
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