1st day no porn and no masturabtion

Discussion in 'Abstinence, Retention, and Sexual Transmutation' started by seagulls6878, Mar 25, 2019.

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  1. seagulls6878

    seagulls6878 Fapstronaut

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    Today is day 1 of hard mode ... been looking at porn since I was 16 am now 27 with pied. I woke up this morning with a semi and kinda rubbed it against my pillow for a minute. Is this a relapse :(
     
  2. What is "pied"?

    Don't worry about it, man, it happens. Just look ahead and try to avoid it in the future. I, myself, have made stroking motions after waking up hard, but stopped before it was too late.
     
  3. seagulls6878

    seagulls6878 Fapstronaut

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    Pied means porn induced erectile dysfunction. I am desenthized to sex. I can’t really get aroused I just don’t get sexually excited. My sex drive is shot normal sex has become boring to me. An erection starts in the brain and I just can’t get excited. Been like this for years feel kind of hopeless ... a year is a long time and then I wonder what if I’ll never be normal again. I just rubbed against the pillow I didn’t orgasm
     
  4. If normal sex doesn't excite you, what type does? Hair-pulling, spitting, spanking, all that or even going further...?

    Have you tried using your imagination? Idk if you are in a nofap mindset or just worried about your sex life.
     
  5. seagulls6878

    seagulls6878 Fapstronaut

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    Nothing excites me ... I want to reset my mind so I can have a family one day and kids if I don’t quit porn and masturbation I’ll be forever alone chained to the computer .
     
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    seagulls6878 Fapstronaut

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    When I say nothing excites me I mean nothing wanna do hard mode reset tired of being depressed and angry and lonely all the time
     
  7. Theloneliestlonelyguy

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    Aww man please don't say forever alone. I think about that every second of the day and it weighs so much on my introverted mind I can feel the sorrow on my heart my chest gets so heavy. I can feel my mom's sadness for me that she will never see her son with someone that he could love. Smh
     
  8. seagulls6878

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    Yeah man well I’m 27 trying to fix it now .... depression gets hard . I probably need to get on some meds feel like crying a lot . Idk I did it to myself now trying to undo it. They see my younger brother has a gf. I haven’t had a gf In years. I know they wonder what is wrong with me ....
     
  9. Theloneliestlonelyguy

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    Yea I hear ya . I know We did it to ourselves , but this world is so fucked and evil . Im writing this and thinking about watching porn they knew it would be a hard addiction to rid yourself of
     
    Last edited: Apr 3, 2019
  10. seagulls6878

    seagulls6878 Fapstronaut

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    Yeah man try to take on more work it’s still there it’s like day 10 I’ve glanced but haven’t jacked off
     
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