18 y/o masturbation addicted here , seeking help!

Hello everyone!

Im a 18 year old college Student,& i have been masturbating from 7- 8 years ,the 1st time i jerked off & watched porn it was when i was 10 y/o & my some seniors ( 4-5 y/0 than me) coerced me into it! & Definitely it was pretty baffeled experience for me i was completely crazy! & Then my seniors freinds would jerk off in front of us(we all juniors) & sometime they tried molested me too , & ofcoz i had no idea what the hell they were doing with there penis! When i asked abt it they told me , doing this give you immense pleasure & also it will help you in increasing Ur height rapidly, this all was a very new experience for me i never had heard seen such thing before & as all kids have the natural tendency to learn new things and experimenting new things so i tried doing the same shitt, they had made my mindset as "jerking off is neccesary & evryone does this" & i was gone completely mad when i came to know ohh yeahh your small needle is not only for peeing & all this kept going....slowly slowly i started getting pleasure doing this & i wud do this everyday, &when i was 12 year old i was jerking off in my room then suddenly my mom entered the room n she caught me,i was so embraced, she might b socked seeing me doing that ,she didn't say me anything...but next day my papa &mom talked with me abt that n told me i should not do that this is very bad habit, & whoever thaught u this shit u shud not stay with him anylonger But i didn't care about that why would i ? I was getting immense pleasure doing that!! Turned 13 ,14,15 and 16 i kept jerking off almost everyday twice thrice & i really got addicted to it , i knew it but i didn't stop it cuz i was getting so much pleasure in it ! Evrything was normal till two years ago but then suddenly mine PMOs related aruge became so strong & it kind of controlled me & my brain completely i would jerk off four times sometime in a day & reached to the point where watching porn is no longer required, my imagination cud bring me the better orgasm, & from last two years im like " see a hot girl in college, go home & Fap, see ah girl with tight jeans , Fap! 24 hrs this shitt keep moving in my head i cant think of anything expect it, i cant focus on study ,my body got so thin, i cant concentrate on anything , i became very isolated from the society, i stay all day home in my room & would waste hours of playing with my penis & watchin porn &heving dirty Thoughts in mind everytime i know i should not do this its ruining my life ,but i cant stop it ,i wud often cry jus right after ejaculation ,masturbation ruined my life ....i was very ambitious & bright student i wanted to do something great but i replaced everything with masturbation, i lost my confident completely ,i feel like i cant do anything i just ruined my life then i will be depressed & then will end up jerking off for reliving the stress, i tried stopping this habit many times but i couldn't do it, i got my memory so weak even feel problem in solving some easy logical reasoning question i feel like i severly damaged my brain ... Feel like my brain kind of got shrinked & when i ejaculate i feel like something is releasing in my brain ! I really want to stop this bad habit please help me what i do ...my whole life is still ahead of me & i just don't want to ruin it...& Plz tell me how much time it will take to heal my body & brain completely After taking nofap? Sorry for my english I'm not that good...

 

Kratos_GOW thanks for replying me buddy ,it mean alot, &yes im ready for it! Last 24 hr without PMO went easily ,i had very strong aruges of PM twice or thrice during it but i managed to control myself...I'm very much committed & determined to NOFAP...& Actually I'm super pumped up for changing my life ..I'm feeling right now i can do it, yesterday i had deactivated all the social media accounts like ,FB , instagram, everything & blocked porn sites etc...it was frist day so may b thats why i didn't have to struggle very much but i know further days gonna be hard for me , but i promise myself i won't give up!!! So lets see how Tough next days going....im fully prepared!!!

 

Sure , will bud

 

Hey bro thanks for sparing the time & giving Ur precious advices, i'd defenetly get them implemented in my routine! Today i successfully completed two days without PMO... During it i had 2 3 times strong aruges of PMOs, but i controlled my didn't have to struggle much, i convinced myself i tried to brainwashed my brain that its just two min of temporarily pleasure & after that i will be very ashamed of myself and will regret,& then i tried diverted my mind toward other thinht i started studying but the aruges were so string, i was feeling i badly needed to fap..& why i felt so ,so sudden cuz actually i had seen some intimative materials while scrolling FB i had no intention but that wasn just kind of appeared front of me from somewhere, well so when my aruges were so strong & i told myself , "this is what you have to fight with" & you have to fight with these argues" if you want to change' yourself want to achibe something you want, then i opend this site & read some sucdess story that really motivated me lot & made me more adamant not to FAP! & Then i took ah cold shower , & the effect of cold shower was magical...it was like all the PMO aruges washed away with cold water!! I felt very relived after that, so whenver i feel like i cant control then i takes cold shower! Apart from that i also started doing yoga & light exercise in morning that makes me feel like more energetic thruout the day! Im feelikf very optimistic & I'm sure as fuck I'll archive my frist goal of No PMO for 90days! My best wishes for you too bro !

 

Sure thing bud