18 months of flatline.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Ghost_Rider, Oct 14, 2018.

  1. Big Lebowski

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    No what I mean is that ever since relapsing on and off I've never been cured. I didnt even know about PAWS back then, I thought I had diabetes and fuck knows what else looking at google too much at the time. I only made the Withdrawal connection since the beginning of my current run now (380 days). So just after a year. I know this process is working, my mind feels clear at times now. Dude I can't even begin to comprehend the amount of racing thoughts I had in my pmo days its seriously fucked up.
     
  2. Ghost_Rider

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    I can totally and absolutely relate to you.
    As far as I'm concerned , I'm going hard mode for last 1.5 years and I'm about 70% cured.
    At max,, I'm going to take 1.5 years more to be 100% cured. So a total of 3 years.

    It might be extremely long time to cure but it's totally worth it when you know you're the man, it gives you an inner peace which really gives you an edge among other males in society.
     
  3. Big Lebowski

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    Man, it's tough at times but honestly for people like me and you and many others on here. There is no going back to that lifestyle if we want to function in society again and regain our sexual functions. Porn is poison to the soul I truly believe that. I'm so glad you're doing well man. I hope I get some consistent signs of life down there soon.
     
  4. Salt & Light

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    Hum, hello guys!

    These numbers look a little familiar to me as a woman - this led to a thought. Ever thought about having your hormones checked? It may not be something men think about to much actually, I've never given it much thought but...
    Haha I'm obviously not suggesting you're transforming into women but hormone levels have a HUGE amount of influence on the body and mind. Big time!

    As we all know, men and woman's hormonal levels differ quite a bit.
    Testosterone, cortisol levels perhaps?

    Imbalance can cause;
    • Irritable
    • Low mood
    • Depression
    • Constant tiredness
    • Loss in joy of living
    • Fewer or no morning erections/less hard erections
    • Reduced physical stamina or strength
    • Weight gain

    If you're concerned, and want to rule out hormonal imbalance, you can very easily get a quick blood test at your doctors and have this analysed, it takes a few days :)
    Honestly, I've no idea if testosterone levels are influenced by this addiction, you may even already know. But this addiction is being researched further all the time, I'm sure there are other things to learn, side effects etc

    This was my first thought anyway,
    S&L x
     
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  5. Mattew

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    For now it's the same for me, i had 20 ok days (i wouldn't say good, but ok), and now i'm again depressed, suicidal, angry etc...
    Il just keep going, i don't need porn or masturbation anyway, after doing it for 20 years i know they don't give me any good for sure.
     
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  6. Ghost_Rider

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    I'm 28 years old and I did all that shit earlier HahH.
    I even wrote a fake prescription for myself to get some prescripted blood tests hahaha..

    All my hormones levels were normal.
    Except testosterone.

    My total testosterone was always more than 709, which is normal .
    But I can see huge fluctuation in free testosterone which is the real deal.

    0 days of nofap _ I tested I was 9 free testosterone which is worse.
    3 months of nofap _ free testosterone 12. Which is poor .
    6 months of nofap - free testosterone 15 normal for a 28 years old.
    9 months of nofap - free testosterone 18 high for a 28 year old.
    12 months of nofap - free testosterone 21. Very high
    18 months of nofap - free testosterone 25. Extremely high {98% of 28 years old have less than 21 free testosterone}.

    So you see my testosterone levels are higher than 98% of general population.
    But pmo addiction has nothing to do with testosterone it has all to do with dopamine and dopamine receptors and it takes time to recover those burnt out and desensitised receptors..
     
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  7. Ghost_Rider

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    Hang in there man, just hang in there.
    I don't know how long have u been on nofap but I can tell u I'm 18 months in and I'm still experiencing all those withdrawals and flatline.
    Although I no longer get angry or depressed
    I'm just calm now with no motivation, no energy and full of lethargy.
     
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  8. Big Lebowski

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    I am exactly how you said it at the moment, calm. I have energy, well I think I do anyway I try and exercise everyday that helps. But I still struggle socially talking to people. Motivation comes and goes as well but before I had no motivation for at least a decade everything has been a misery, when I started using porn even when I used it growing up it caused problems that I now notice before I became a full blown addict how shit mentally I was going.
     
  9. Mattew

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    I'm 146 days in.

    When did he depression or the suicidal thoughts stop for you?
     
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  10. Ghost_Rider

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    It stopped for me at about 6 months.
    You gotta find something emotionally compelling to keep you busy otherwise you will never get out of this rut.

    Anything like sports or studies or your business but you MUST keep yourself occupied.

    And yes, I can tell you my memory is sharp as fuck now. I read something once and it's registered in my memory forever.
    Ojas, Semen retention etc these things are golden for students or for anyone trying to use their brain in activities like chess or studies. Your brain becomes like a computer.
     
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  11. Ghost_Rider

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    How long have u been an addict?
    How long have you been doing nofap?
     
  12. Big Lebowski

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    Been watching porn since 13 so 12 years man. Started nofap in 2012 when I knew something was wrong. First ever streak was 77 days felt amazing and stupidly relapsed think I gained libido a week before i hit 77 days then.
     
  13. overclocked

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    Keep your heads up, I had been in a severe flatlilne, now I can't even remember how bad it was :)

    But I suffered a lot and I'm still not perfectly normal after more than 2 years. But I'm making progress and can even have sex. It's just not as perfect yet, dick needs constant stimulation and gets flaccid after orgasm and will remain so for the rest of the day, no matter what.

    At least I'm not a zombie anymore who can barely move without feeling discomfort. It was that bad for me.
     
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  14. Freeddom_Taker

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    Respect to you guys for even reach 200+ days. I'm sure if some of y'all make it up to a year y'all can reach 3 times of the same streak.

    I've seen some of your posts on Google when searching about strong paws before I signed up for the forum. I thought y'all stopped on Nofap as I didn't see no post updates. Based on your testimony i want to keep on going as I abused myself to pmo for 7 years.
     
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  15. Big Lebowski

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    Just keep moving forward mate. If you have PAWS there is no going back to porn, believe me.
     
  16. Ghost_Rider

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    Nice man
     
  17. Ghost_Rider

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    Exactly like me.
    Dick needs stimulation to get hard and need constant stimulation to remain strong but it's much better than nothing at all. It will get limp pretty soon if no stimulation is kept.
    But hey its all a part of recovery process.
    We gotta hang in there.
     
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  18. Ghost_Rider

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    Yup, you must have seen our posts specially on Hourglass penis, peyronies disease.
    NoFap is a lifestyle, we can't go back to pmo as we know how valuable our Semen is. And how dangerous pmo is.
     
  19. countitjoy5

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    You need to get out in the sunshine and sweat - lift weights, run, do proactive things to raise testosterone. I don't see flatlining as a bad thing, it means I'm not being hounded by sexual desire and I can think about other things.
     
  20. Freeddom_Taker

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    No I've seen them in the forum by google typing. Usually research them when those paws are coming strong and painful.
     

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