141 days porn free, 44 no PMO

It is approximately 300 days without porn. Yesterday and today i feel better. I do not crave for pornography and my attitiude to women and generally to all people has changed. I respect them and I respect myself. I try to cut out my dirty fantasies as soon as possible. Instead, I try to think about worthy relationship which is filled by lots of love.
I told my sister about my addiction for almost 10 years and that I am on the rehab since the beggining of the present year. She said that i do not have to be worry. It is my past and I need to go further with my life. She is right. I must remember what I have been doing for many years but I cannot punish myself all the time.
I am a Christian and I asked God to help me with my weaknesses. The addiction was my escape from negative emotions. Now, I do not want to flee away from it. I want to experience all of them and God is my Good assistant.
I have got something like flu for more than week, still pain in chest, pain teeth (braces), still looking for a job... lot to improve
My humble conclusion is to stop to fantasising about porn. I used to fantasised a lot, especially at the morning, when i woke up and when I went to bed. Now I try to throw it away from my brain. It is difficult initially but after time it is getting easier. I think i must train my brain to not escape from reality.
My libido is ok, I appreciate women's beauty but with respect for them and I do not feel the need to masturbate at all. Overall, I am happier guy.

 

And one more thing... sometimes I get the impression that i regain control of my life. But I am still afraid because I do not want to lose it. Depression, anxiety, fearness of almost everything. I do not want to be a coward any more

 

I am not an expert but sit down on you chair on lie down on your bed and listen to your thoughts. I have done it from some time and it is good IMO. Sometimes during this activity I have something similar to convulsions.
I think it is because I always block my emotions thinking about dirty stuff. Now, I try to leave this habit and tremble or shiver happened.
Congratulation of your 100 days. Stay strong Freeddom. Try to throw out your fantasies. Wish you the best

 

I hope during a following time you will have changed your mind. You will be happy with beloved one.
Almost 10 years in pornography addiction, 10 months out of this poor behaviour, during that time over six months without masturbation, now is 14th day without m. My libido is ok, even very ok. I can look into real girls and admire them a lot. I am very very horny and i do not have a problem with my limp dick. Even I am still cold a little I needed to go for a run because of my temperament. I am really appreciated that I crave for real girls.
I have a lot to improve. I lost a lot during former years. I am 28 and never had a girlfriend, do not have contact with my friends. I haven't had a job for a month.
I do not want to feel like pussy. I know, that to move on with my life I need to accept myself and like myself. I hope that leaving masturbation will bring me more masculine in my heart and mind

 

Sometimes i feel happy without any reason. Only because I am