Hi! So I first started NoFap in May 2017 and went strong for 21 days but relapsed then. From then on, I never managed to get longer than 15 days. I am struggling with depression for like four years now. My depression is definitely NOT primarily due to masturbating once-twice a week (or how much i did it regularly throughout these years)but specific traumatas that i don't want to dive in into deep right now. But since my depression got worse over the past 2 years I often find myself using masturbation as an escape mechanism which escalated into watching porn and masturbating up to three times a day which consumed a lot of time and energy (gotta find the porn with the right moans, y' know?)and i felt so guilty about that and I don't want to do that anymore. Also, I finally want to pursue my goals and dreams and I really could use that extra energy. Currently, I'm on day 8 and I'm feeling very down today which is mostly due to longterm friendships that are going downhill since we're changed to much and stuff which is very hard for me to swallow and to accept. Especially, since I have only like one friend left and the others have enough others to replace me. For the upcoming school year, I need to socialize more and hopefully find some LOYAL friends. I'm over these fake friends squads who smile on the group photos but intriguing each other behind their backs. Whatever, I feel very tempted to masturbate, but I want to go strong for at least 90 days to see if I notice any benefits. LET'S DO THIS!!!!!