“A hero can be anyone.”

In the recent weeks I’ve reflected on why it is that The Batman is such a celebrated superhero. He’s been around for almost a century, and if I’m not mistaken, he is one of the few superheroes that has no inherit supernatural super powers. He was not born from another planet, nor was he inoculated with some xenobiotic. And Last I checked, superpower powers are what make you a superhero…. Or is it? What makes Batman greater than the rest is he is able to face the evils that lurk in the dark corners of the world and in his very own heart by harnessing the noble human qualities of persistence, hard work and strong discipline.

It’s time for me too to rise and Conquer (or surrender to ) the strong holds within my very own life. Porn and masturbation is my first priority. It started out as innocent recreational activity when a teenager, but it has now consumed my life. It has ruined my relationships, my confidence, and it absorbs so much of my time and I depend on it daily. Every time I feel stressed, lonely, or insecure I use it as a crutch in the hopes that it makes me feel whole, worthy and accepted. Every-time, every single time I do it, it leaves more empty, less whole and disgusted with myself. It is a cycle and I keep on biking it. There has been times…so many times, I’ve tried to escape from its seductive clutches. And when I seldomly do escape; It grabs me, lures me back in, reminds me of my past guilt and failures, and assures me that I can’t live without it.

There’s this scene in The Dark Knight Rises where Bruce Wayne (The Batman) is trapped in this hellish pit. He makes several attempts to escape by trying to climb out of it, then leaping to a ledge that offers the only way out. He fails, and he fails again, until he learns the only way to get out is to make the jump to the ledge without the safety harness that he's been using for safety measures in the past jumps. It’s time that I too let go of this “safety harness” in order to climb out of this pit of self-misery, insecurity, and guilt; in hopes that I can carry out a healthy righteous life that we all intended to live. Today is the official first day of my NoFAP journey. I will continue to share posts about my experience, insights, and troubles along the way, in hopes that you too can “get out your cape”.

“No one is ever lost forever so long as you continue to work to be a better version of yourself than you were yesterday, and things will work out eventually”