So I have came to a conclusion with my self I'm not going to look at any girl unless it's in real life or they are in a good form on the internet and not going to use the stick in a sexual way unless it's into a woman. :P
Glad I'm quitting early I have saw such bad stories with older people I will not allow that to happen to me!
So close then, but then in inner force told me to go on to http://emergency.nofap.com/ and I was saved!