Bro. Don't hate yourself. Don't focus so much on " not PMOing" if it gets out of control. Rather try to find out where this strong impulse comes from. It has an addictive nature but we become addicted for a reason. Something might be stressing you out. Put your energy into finding out what it is.
If it is nothing specific, try to establish mental stability in general. It is something you have to work for. Form routines that benefit you, try to find your values in life and try to arrange your life and habits according to them.
Be patient with yourself and compassionate. You are not a loser when you fap. You're a victim of modern society. But you can stop being a victim by taking responsibility for yourself, and if you learn that, fighting addiction will be easier and more insightful.
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