Comments on Profile Post by ryan23

Roomate had his girlfriend over, heard her moaning in the room and was just kinda triggered. Like the voyeur in me always wanting to see and hear what I'm not supposed to.

I haven't been sexually active, and I'm grateful for that. Still a virgin technically. I hope I can hold out till marriage, as I know it's a special thing. I want to find true love, in a culture that wants to hook up.

I don't know why it's appealing to listen to the girl moan, or why that turns me on. He's literally the room next to mine.

That’s sounds tough.

I've heard my neighbors in my apartment building a couple of times. I think I get where you're coming from. It's like P. You're drawn to it, but you know it's bad for you. I felt like I had relapsed one of these times because it was like hearing P. Ugh.

Exactly. I almost have that relapse feeling. Went to a recovery group tonight which was helpful, and mentioned it. Though I shouldn't count it as a relapse, should I? Didn't masturbate, but I did listen a little harder than I should have.. :(

I felt depressed after, like a relapse. Does it feel like you watched P?

Slightly. I mean, there was this strong dopamine rush. It sucks they are right next to my door. :(

But still, I tried to listen more than I should have.

I did too, when it happened to me! I felt like such a creep, but it is an addiction, so. It's ok. Just start over. :)

Very true. There's a lot of aspects I've gotten better at such as avoiding pornography. Does this deserve a reset in your oppinion?

I think so, if it gave you that dopamine release, then yeah it's a relapse. It's up to you, tho. If you feel like you did before, then you might be ok. If so, oh well. Happens to a lot of us. :)

I've decided I'm not going to count this as a relapse. With the situation and how I don't feel like it was a total relapse, I'm going to carry on with my streak and hopefully avoid trying to listen more than I should have next time.