30 Day update (PIED, no libido, flaccid and depressed)

Hi guys. 30 days today and I must admit, it is encouraging. Just a little bit of a background. I am 36, watched porn everyday for 10 years and engaged in PMO atleast once a day if not more. The last year I had PIED and altho I tried noFap, I always relapsed. I had a streak of 5 days, 7 days and the longest was about 12 days. I started this journey 30 days ago and actually got serious this time because I was super frustrated. I was with a woman 30 days ago and hardly got erect while she was blowing me. It was embarrassing to say the least and felt like the tipping point. I had to change.

30 days on and here are the things I have noticed:

1. Day 1 to 24 were awful, completely flatlined. No libido, no desire for sex or a woman. Could not even get my penis to move. It was so soft and looked like it shrunk. Tried thinking of things that should turn me on and didnt feel a thing. It was extremely depressing but I am determined to cure this. I visited this site and reddit for motivation and all the stories of people with similar disorders gave me strength. For all of you going thru this, HANG IN THERE. Mentally, I felt a lot lot better. I could feel my brain getting clearer and clearer. Didn't feel superhuman or anything but I am more confident than I used too. I had days of high energy and then some super low energy as. Especially in the first two weeks.

2. Day 24 to 25. So things started to get better around Day 24. Woke up with semi morning wood. It sounds bad but its progress. My penis was completely flaccid so this was a good sign and gave me A LOT of encouragement. Baby steps is what I told myself. I had semi morning wood on Day 25 as well but have not since. Tho my penis looks like its regaining strength.

3. Day 26 to 30. The last 4 days have been interesting. I am getting aroused (without touching myself) when I fantasize a little. No rock hard boners or anything and it doesn't happen every time but its something and its very encouraging. I got a good boner two night ago and was tempted to MO for the first time. I didn't and ended up feeling blue balled. It was painful but I didn't give in. My sack still feels heavy like I should release.

4. TODAY: Now heres where I am mentally. My brain is definitely thinking a lot clearer. I feel a lot better, energy levels are much higher. I feel more motivated and am no longer depressed. The progress is slow but to see results (even tho they are not that significant) is very encouraging and gives me hope. I am determined and will get thru this.

I am not in a relationship but I have 4 girls that I talk too and have made out with, sexted and are waiting to have sex with me. (I am a decent looking guy with a nice personality, women have never been a problem). I have been avoiding them because I fear my PIED is still there. My goal is to be with all 4 of them hopefully within the next month.

I hope this update helps some of you and encourages you to keep going. I am not cured yet but I see light at the end of the tunnel. If you guys have any comments, questions or encouragement, please do not hesitate to reply.