Recovery takes a long time?

So I thought about this a little bit, how long it takes to recover, dare I say completely?

I look at my counter pretty much every time that I log on and it is always depressing to me. In my head, more time than what actually happens is thought to go by. A lot longer period of time is what I believe goes by without looking at porn, but it simply isn't true. That counter smacks me in the face... then I look at other people's counters and I've seen some people that have 100 plus days and I'm like, "Wow." It's seriously phenomenal to me that people have gone that long without porn... I want to be that way. I want to be completely porn free.

Then it makes me think... I've been trying to stop looking at porn for a while. Before I was on NoFap I tried quitting, I didn't exactly take it hugely serious but I still tried. I think it was years that I spent knowing that I shouldn't look at porn before I started to really step it up and stop. It's probably been months now that I have now drastically ramped up my, absolutely no porn, way, then joining NoFap and I'm still addicted to it. I still get massive urges... Which I think are only the blessing of God and Jesus Christ that I've resisted... But, when in the world are those urges going to go away? I have some pretty crappy stuff going on in my life right now, which I think greatly attributes to my urges... but still.. I still have the urges. While I'm making massive strides in getting rid of porn completely, I have no movies, video games etc with nudity, I'm still an addict. And I think pornography recovery is an insanely slow process and that is depressing. I think it's going to take a lot longer time than what I ever dreamed of to get to the point of being able to never look at pornography again... My question to every person who is 90 days or more abstaining from Porn... How long did it take you to reach that point? How many times/long have you reached that point?


P.S. coming to this site specifically has helped me in stopping my urges to look at porn. Just coming to the site let alone doing anything has helped me. Thought you should all know. When I felt urges I came here and it helped.

 

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