Counting down the days to my TWO YEARS PMO FREE

It's about cold showers, NoFap, intermittent fasting, hitting the gym and meditation.
How those habits are helping me and many other people and what are the scientific proven benefits of them.
As soon as there's an english version, I will let you know!

 

My dream is to reach counter to be NO-PMO forever. It's really awesome to read stories and see that they are real in your own life.

There are some problems that I have now. I have social anxiety and it was worse before (when I was still PM, got free from P with God's help, but got stuck in M again for 3 years, now I'm beating it for the last time), but the weird thing is that I thought I was doing better, but then again it started to come back. Will it get better after some time? I just can't believe that I have anxiety on so stupid things (like greeting someone, when they come in the office, but I guess it's because I have problems with my throat - I always feel unready to speak - but again it may be the anxiety doing stiff necks ?)

The best part in this journey is that You learn a lot about yourself and you learn how to live. And you never know what awaits you after 100 days, after 200 and 500 days. Just like unlocking super powers.

 

Thanks for sharing.

 

Well as far as I know, I have a lot of problems, but I am already fixing them step by step. I see that these problems were caused by situations when I was kid. I was raised in good family, but school (along with computer and TV) just destroyed my personality. Now I'm trying to fix what was destroyed ( I'm 20 now). The social anxiety is partially due to the fact that I was mostly with my family when I was kid. The only place where i commuted with someone else was at school (where morals are of the least importance). At school I quite often got some attention from others. It was moderate attention, but sometimes there were a lot of situations which made me distrust people and close myself up socially. So right now I almost never feel completely safe when I am among people. Now I'm working for 9 months already, but the problem is that I still cannot trust people (in this case co-workers), because I've seen their good side, but I've also seen their bad side. The bad side always makes the trust fall to the floor. So partially social anxiety was caused by M, but some of it is still psychological disorder caused by some things. Another thing that causes my anxiety is that a lot of times I think about not far future events and I currently have problems that can make the given situation awkward. For example, when I am about to greet someone, I'm afraid that nothing will come out of my mouth, because most of time, my throat feels unready to speak (which may also be induced by anxiety). Well it's really complicated, but I'm trying to fix the problems that induce anxiety.

Now when I got free from P, social anxiety levels dropped a lot (but it's a possibility that it was due to the fact that God changed me quite a lot at that time (he freed me from P addiction in one day (along with many more addictions, like foul language). Can you imagine that. I just didn't want to watch it anymore. He also freed me from M, but I got back in it, just because I thought I have to release seed, so that my balls stay intact (so stupid - but I learned a lot through this addiction)).

Right now, after I've been free from M for 101 days, I can say that there was a moment during those 101 days, when I could engage in situations, in which normally my heart would race. The question that I have, is - will that come back at some time? Because at this moment I sometimes have racing heart (not as much as before, but still). Or is it normal to have this?