Porn and masturbation twisted my brain and sexuality

I am 18 year old male . I used to be a shy in school. I talked to girls but always got friendzoned. But when I was around 12 , I was able to make a gf who lived near my house , she was 14 . We used to kiss each other passionately . After some time, she left . But i knew nothing about sex other than kissing . At the age of 15 I discovered porn but I liked seeing sexy girls pics rather than porn because there were dicks in porn video which made me feel gross . I masturbated 2 to 3 times daily but still hadn't lost interest in women even till 2015 I was pursuing girls but one girl who I deeply loved left me with someone else and I discussed it with someone but they told me that girls are mean and stuff . I was already depressed and after bombarded by those thoughts I started showing no interest in girls because I was afraid and felt bitter and started having "gay thoughts " which I was able to defeat for one year (last year) . I masturbated last year more than ever watching wwe divas and actresses . But now my dick don't get erected after seeing them and 2 days before it had erection for man faces not dicks . I felthink like I was done with life because I could not get erection now and only erection were for man faces not dicks . I never watched gay shit . (Yesterday, , i realised that it was not to man i got etection but the idea was more kinky , taboo which made my hard on so i am not gay) Until I read some posts on nofap similar to my condition. So , I have decided to join nofap and never fap for life .
Current situation -
1. Loose erection for women .
2. Gay thoughts
3. Social anxiety with women
4. Depression and suicidal thoughts
5. Phone addiction
6. No physical workout
7. It's been more than 16 months I tried to have relationship with a girl
8. Lost interest in women because of social conditioning.

I will reverse these 8 situations by rebooting from masturbation for life and start talking with chicks in this week. I know I will win .

 

Thanks , man . But I don't know why but I have started feeling pain near my heart because of masturbation.

I am of indian descent ( but i am quite fair so chances are that my maternal great grand mother had some white genes ) so my mother was always like don't talk to chicks. Maybe , that may have subliminally you know ....

 

Stop masturbating , start talking to girls

 

Thanks

 

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Thanks