Despair

well if you are not spending a lot of quality time with other people, i would suggest that you learn to enjoy entertaining yourself and being in your own little world. this might seeem cooky but this past year i didn't go to school so i had a lot of time alone, and thats kind of what i did, i would daydream and just all around move at a slower pace, i also found living in the present moment and enjoying the simple things in life like doing dishes and eating and sleeping, if you can learn to enjoy living in the present and enjoying the mundane tasks in life i think that you will find peace at heart even if the world around you is very hectic. now it sounds like your busy but maybe start keeping a journal, or keeping a notebook on you and writing whenever you feel bored. maybe go on a retreat of some sort to give yourself a boost. i also found that getting up early and doing yoga at home (alone i used an instructional video) would give me more energy to face my day. even if it means less sleep, doing yoga is like drinking an energy drink except its good for you. i really can't give much advice, maybe tell your partner about your need for more solitude and try to work something out.

if you really find yourself up against a brick wall maybe do something drastic like sail around the world or something, theirs no point coasting through life with a permanent migraine and a job that you hate, maybe I'm naive but thats how i see it anyway.

I'm really not in a position to give advice (I'm 15 and don't have much experience in life yet. i do understand the "wanting more solitude thing" ( I'm extremely introverted and have just come off a year where i didn't do anything much (i didn't even go to high school) because i had kind of burnt out at the end of grade nine. but its something their isn't really a cure for, (if you find one please do tell)

this probably doesn't make sense but ill post it anyway because you might find something in here worth thinking about.

one last thing, life is beautiful and never forget that.

 

Could it be withdrawal from addiction? Maybe it will improve. Or do you not enjoy your job?

 

Solitude and alone time is great for recharging yourself sometimes. I will occasionally feel like that, but I am usually hanging out with my brother or my mom.

Like I was saying, solitude is good, just don't let it get in the way of your family. My father is the biggest hermit ever, and he is paying for the time he never spent with us while we were younger. We don't have much respect for him, my mom doesn't like him 'cause she has forgotten his love in their relationship, and talking to him is hard because he doesn't have a relationship with us.

My father provides for us, and I am very grateful for that. We have food, a home, but he let the providing for his family part of fatherhood get in the way. He forgot all about the family he was providing for.

Good luck my friend,

~Squeaky Soul

 

Are you feeling better?

~Squeaky Soul

 

I am glad for you Keep up the good fight!

~Squeaky Soul

 

Immerse yourself in a new hobby, do something productive, or read a book. I'm introverted, and for a while I actually believed that there was something wrong with me because I couldn't stand seeing certain friends more than once a week.. Anyway, there's nothing wrong with wanting to be alone most of the week.

Also, I can't say that I have experience with this, but I am very interested in isolation tanks. An isolation tank is basically a temperature controlled bathtub that allows you to float in silent darkness for as long as you want. The goal of 'floating' is to desensitize the body from all stimulation (which is why it is temperature controlled to match skin temperature). Perhaps if you were to meditate inside an isolation tank, you might feel more refreshed.