90 days to 2017!

Morning all, been labelling my thoughts as sexual distractions when I see them for what they are. It has been helping me get out from underneath that all consuming feeling of them. Hope everyone is doing well. Keep strong, stay smart.

 

Awesome - shoot 'em down as they try to launch. Perfect!

 

Day 8, one week down 15 more to go

 

21 days in guys! I'm 3 weeks sober today. I'm so glad that I've made it this far.

 

Congrats Man - 3 weeks it is! You're doing great!

 

Doing great man!

 

Well I'm on day 25 but I have an interesting dillema. I think I had a wet dream last night but I'm not sure because I've never had one before. I was trying to go to sleep and while I was in this half asleep state, the part of my brain that controls my resistance to acting out just kind of shut off. (Trigger warning) I started humping the bed until I finally climaxed. I was mostly concious throughout the whole thing. Should I count this as a relapse or not? I really don't want to, but if it is then I guess I'll start over.

 

Well, I feel kind of bad, but not near as bad as a full relapse while conscious. It kind of felt intentional, but not. Like I wanted to stop myself but also I didn't, because it felt good. In the past I would usually use a situation like this as an excuse to relapse more but this time I haven't. I'm not going to count it for now. I don't feel totally drained like a normal relapse, but I feel a tiny bit drained. Thanks for the advice, man

 

KC - it does matter greatly and speak volumes of your character that you would bring the situation here to be judged by peers. I am proud of you for being so honest and up front. I agree with Maske, I don't feel like it was intentional and you should not reset. Stay strong and carry on! ;0)

 

How's it going Fellas - please check in and let us know how you are doing.

 

Good morning, it's good to see you all here.

Epiphany like is a good way of putting it. I p-subbed a bit last week, and still fantasise, consciously and un consciously and I realised last week that I'm do those things in the same way and for the same reason I pmo'd regularly. I once heard someone say porn isn't your problem, porn is what you've been using to avoid your problem. keep strong and honest.

 

Good posts Fellas - keep them coming. You guys are right on target within conversation. This is what guys your age need to understand: pmo is a temporary escape drug. Learn to work through things - you have value And worth.

 

How's everybody doing this fine Friday???

 

Morning @Burner1 @maske and anyone else still around in this thread. I'm good, I spent a nice weekend with my girl friend. She is going away next week so I'll be on my own and that's a big trigger time for me so will be logging in daily during that time.

Part of it is feeling alone. There was a period in my life a few years ago when I felt desperately alone and used porn to avoid and try and fill in that sadness. Life is so much better now but when I am alone an echo of that loneliness comes back to me and it's almost an unconscious reflex to 'escape' to pmo-ing.

The other part is just boredom and laziness and porn offers a quick rush for almost no effort, so going to plan a number of things to do and people to see.

Hope you're all well.

 

@stephanD I understand your situation well. Thanks for sharing and trusting us to help you. My suggestion would be to post here when you are struggling, be detailed so that you have to process what is happening which should help you take command and prevent a reset. We will rally around you for support and encouragement.

 

Thanks @Burner1 its good to know you guys are here and really does help. Thanks for caring. How are you doing?

 

I am doing well. Urges are in check and I am on guard. I'm like everybody else, one choice away from a relapse. Talking with you guys and knowing I'm in the fight with friends (not alone) is my motivation source. It's great doing this together. Thanks for asking. Let's keep up the good fight!