50+ days in, losing hope, Help!!

Hello everyone,

My name is Jason and I have been addicted to pmo since I was 11. At the age of 18 I was getting into fetish. Mostly leggings and other sexy clothes type of fetish. I'm not a vergin and have had a pretty decent life with woman but since my 18th (I got into fetish) it decreased so hard to the point I had alot of trouble. ED, social anxiety, lack of motivation, no energy, no comfortzone expending at all, and you name it. I discovered no pmo 2 years+ ago and believed it because, why would 100.000+ people all gather together and lie about a subject right? So I tried and failed like 300 times I think. Finally, this streak was working. Don't know how I did it, I think the fails hit me harder then the urges after so manu fails.

Today is my 53th day of no pmo. I watch nothing at all and touch nothing at all! I have seen some cute improvements in the first 30 days, nothing extreme tho. But since day 30 till today I feel exactly like how I felt in my active days. Like I mentioned before, no motivation, no social improvements at all, mood swings, ultra brainfog, and no energy to the point my school and work is getting behind. Alot of days I can't even get out of bed because I have nothing to get out of bed for (thats how I feel, I know I have).

I did discovered that the brain is very powerful. You can live in the exact same moment and you can feel so happy, and you can live in the exact same moment and feel awful. It's like, you life outside has nothing to do with your state of happiness at all. It's a very weird discovery.

Well, I'm losing hope and really need some TRUTHFUL help. Don't get me wrong, I won't go back, even if this will never help me. I'm so not into pmo anymore, I will never go back the urges are hard but easy to beat with a fuck off mindset. But I need help to find some new hope. I'm not in a flatline I guess. I am attracted to woman, especially porn and especially my fetish. And have woods now and then. But I am looking for more energy, more motivation, less social anxiety and getting back my woman attraction skills. This is why I started, and I see no improvements after almost two months. When will I see results and will I ever see results? I try to do what has to be done but believe me my energy is so low, I can't handle nothing. I have to finish school this year and if this will be going on for a couple weeks I think I am possibly in trouble. Please help me, share your experiences.

For people who are getting into no pmo. Don't let this story scare you, alot of people had a lot less withdrawel days then me. Pmo will never ever help you in any way so it is alleays better to quit! Stay strong and don't be scared of the urges and craving, see them as a living creature and say fuck you to them everytime they try to manipulate you! After a couple of weeks fighting urges will get easier!!

 

Thanks for your reaction! Yeah, I actually should be happy for reaching more then 50 days. I am in words happy and proud of it, but at this moment my brain can't produce feel good chemicals in my brain I think. Maybe I'm just too caught up in the moment but the 23 days of withdrawels feels like a lifetime.

I'm glad your thankful for my story

 

Thanks a lot for the reactions men, this means a lot to me. Feels like I am not alone in this situation!

I will try to push through the bad feelings and do my priorities even if I don't feel like it at all. I hope this flatline thing won't last too long. I really hope I will wake up one day with the amazing benefits yall described. Damn that would be so amazing. I will keep fighting! The days fly by fast!

When I will experience those benefits one day, I will definetely post here again to let you know how it is going!

 

That's right!
Let's be like water my friend

 

Wow thank you so much! Yeah because of the flatline my emotions are numbed down I think. But when I look at the number 55 I feel like, did I just do 55 days of no pmo, like..for real????

We'll beat the flatline, we are allready in pain so let's get a reward from it!

 

Nah I won't listen to this guy, he is very disrespecting. I think he didn't read everything. I didn't use to be like this, it's been just a couple of years. I've expierenced a great life with and without women. It was getting downwards when I got into pmo deeper in a more addictive way. May be coincidence, but I don't think that's the case. I will keep going or actually I won't keep doing pmo anymore ever. It will surely don't give me negative effects so the only thing what can happen is benefits if it's real. And I still believe in the benefits.

I will get this streak going and hopefully I will prove non believer wrong one day. When that day comes, I will make a very detailed thread to help everyone.

 

UPDATE!!

I think it is really happening.. I think I am getting out of the flatline man. I felt a little better today and it was just the same day as usual.

On the road 2 girls were totally hitting on me. Not saying this is due to no pmo but I haven't had this touch for a while now, I'm not used to it anymore. Felt good tho, this reminds me I can still get my touch back!! This gave me motivation.

I will allways keep it real and don't make things bigger then they are. The story of the girls could be totally coincidence. I just go with the flow, but I do feel a lil better right now so maybe I am getting out of it, who knows. Time will tell, I will keep it updated.

I actually think I have just enough energy and motivation back to start going to the gym tomorow and eat healthy again. Not sure tho, but I will definetely go to the gym tomorow and see how it goes.

#BeComfortableBeingUncomfortable